Simpang tiga

Pernah kau pergi ke simpang tiga di sana?.
Ya  simpang tiga yang tanpa ada lampu trefik itu,
Dahulunya ada, mungkin kini tewas dimamah zaman.
Fungsinya sudah lumpuh ditelan usia alam.

Pon2..
Keretanya tersusun susun panjang. Ah! ampun!
Apa yang ada di sana?
Beria benar nampaknya kau mahu ke situ.
Oh kawan, aku tercicirkan satu barang.
Ingin aku ambil pulang.

Lantas aku jalan pisot pisot.
Redah jua aku jalan itu.
Misinya, aku harus tiba di simpang tiga itu walau apa jua waktu.
Hamburan kasar si pemandu pemandu bengis aku tulikan.
Asap asap tengik kereta, aku  hidukan juga.
Langkah tetap aku teruskan

Ah! Simpang tiga!
kembalikan barang aku.
Pulangkan barang segera.
Aku mahukan memori aku lewat musim itu.
Berdua aku dan dia, memakna rasa cakna.
Kembalikan tawa aku dan dia di saat kami teratur susun di dalam kereta.
kembalikan! aku mahu ia segera.
Tanpanya, jalanku terpisot pisot.

Oh simpang tiga,
kembalikanlah..

ini doktorlah.

Being a doctor is cool ya?

Just come and and mess with us.

Toss us aside when we are no longer needed.

And Hey! Not surprisingly,we are the doctors and thus,we healed.

Haha.. Its not funny anymore but we smile : D

P/s: Why eah? Yeah! just because a doctor is no longer a doctor without a patient. And we love our patients blindlessly...

Kluver Bucy Syndrome - Amygdala lession

Oh welcome baby,
Now let me ask U a question, What happen if U lost ur fear and anxiety?
Hhaha.. common scenario in todays worlds right...?
Lots of teenagers out there have lost their fear and rule their life inappropriately. Oh, pity of them~
Ok now I want to talk about Kluver Bucy syndrome..
Lend me some of your time okkkay?

Clinical features

1. Psychic blindness- Unable to recognise common objecs despite the fact that they could see.

Hahaha... this might be useful to those who hate/love somebody damn much .. See or couldnt see bring no differences..Jiwa x kacau..

2.Oral tendencies- examine object with their mouth instead of their eyes.

Trust me. This is so disgusting. But what to do. When Allah take back part of His gift to us, what is left. No human characteristic. Haiwankah? Alhamdulillah atas nikmatMU tuhan..

3.Hypermetamorphosis- Obsesesed by the urge to run around and touch everything and place each found objects in their mouth.

4.Altered sexual behaviour- This is kinda weird. They loss their judgement. They dont care of having different species or inanimate sexual partner. There is a case of one woman who claimed of getting married to Eiffel tower.. See picture below

5.Emotional change- decrease in fear

Erika La Tour Eiffel. This is her legal name. She changed her name after marrying the Eiffel towel.

See? There a lot more of interesting cases out there. Dont judge them as psycho . They are not.

p/s:  

There are things I cannot do.

 I cannot watch my people suffer.

I cannot sit when something must be done.

I cannot judge those who are different.

There are things I cannot do.

Run. Hide. Ignore.

There are things I cannot do.

But there are certainly things that I can do.

                                                (Padmé Amidala in Star Wars: Clone Wars)

Cun meh? kuakakaka

Hahaha... Caye x caye x...

saya baru tahu cane nak edit gambr jadi warna cani..

I tot ade latest adobe photoshop yg I tatau ke..

Upe upenye adit hue je...

oh itu ke...

Hmm~  K lah sambung stud! Daa~

P/s: Just thought about my previous post on " What if I fall to Mr heartbreaker"... Hmm, I should revise on it too... hahah... studi lah mek oooiii!! : p

Osh~ Boshan itu Cinta... UUUweeeekkks

Oh my lovey dovey mood suddenly transform to hatey datey mood. Y babe? Yelah kan, a friend in need is a friend indeed kan. But some peoples tu just a friend when they are in need je. Sakit prowt  kot kalo ini macam harus disuap. Hohoho.. Lucky me, hidup awak jauh dari hidup saya. Jauh sangat. Hmm... macam2 kan manusia ni. Reason I hatey datey sangat nikan, sebab kawan2 awak tu@ gang2 awak tu, sooo hard spoken. Sangat hotlah kalo nak critic2 nikan. Hati saye ni cam angin bayu je... Tiup sepoi2..  X pasal2, awak yang kena tempiasnye. But somehow, its oklah babe, I just spill all my anger here. Nothing is left for U then unless kasih sayang yang melimpah ruah je. Huhu ^^ ( Dulu geli nak pakai huhumuhuu ni, but now, da jadi blood meat da)

Okay, now back to my lovey dovey mood. 1...2...3...Zaaasssss

Osh.. This is old pica of my bros n sis which is taken a year back during our visit to Malacca . It reminds me that it has been some times we havent go for any vacation together. (Tolak yang Bukit Tinggi tulakan..hiii) Oh, I need another...** Oh but my abah is getting busy and busier... Oh luv U dad.. mmuuuahhhmmmuuah

 This is what we calll busking. Hmm a rare scenario in big2, n small2 city... Commonly found at tourist attraction places.. Hmmm~ Mood nak berbusking, but I dont have any talent to come with... eeeehhhh? Kalo check BP agak2 ade orang nak baling2 syiling x...Hee~ (Perasaan ini disebabkan oleh JPA x masuk lagi...uuueeeehhhh)

Oh, saya mishing2 sama ini adik kecil ryte now. Im really looking forward 13 January 2011. Nak balik rumah and celebrate her birthday on 15th Jan. So below is what I get for her. Hope she like it. (Oh, ini budak manyak cerewet loo... x macam langsung kakak2nye)

She has alot of Mor Girl collection already. But now, she starts collecting shasha's thingy plak... Adosh... Zaman I dulu, we live in poverty. Mane ade duit nak collect2 ni sume. Paling best, kumpul setem jek. Tu pun beli buku setem sendiri. Duit simpanan. Tade pun nak mintak2 ngan mak ayah...
Oh, sian anak sulung I nanti... uueeehhh????

p/s: When U think U r not happy with ur life, always think that someone is happy simply because U r exist... Okiesh... I am happy to live because I have my family which I love a lot... Love me? Miss me? I love n miss U tooo... Hhahaha 

yeah! big clap and big grin

Think that I have passed the grieving period.. Ops hover!~

Hohoho.. Yeah It just need time for forgetting as well as forgiving.

Give a yeay to myself

YEAY!

Today I will be sitting for my cfcs meq paper.

Really hope I can do well and the questions will be as easy as ABC... muahoho.

This is part of professional exam yeee... ehheh

Okay, ganbatte kudasai babe!

keep striving! : D

Rumble young man, Rumble... He got the Parkinson's disease

I love to see my name where everyone can read it.

someday Im gonna see it in bright, bright light. (Muhammad Ali)

He was the legend. He was born as Muhammad Ali. Yeah he was the generation of the world best boxer. So what was so special about him that I want to talk about? Oh he had the Parkinson's disease. Trust me, Dr Adibah said so. Hahah >.<

Parkinson Disease

-Defined as a syndrome consisting of variable combination of tremor, rigidity, bradykinesia and characteristic disturbance of gait and posture.

-Causes are unclear but there are number of factors; toxins, free radical, aging, and genetic is possible but no single gene is identified. Basically it is idiopathic, unknown causes.

-Pathogenesis:

1. loss of dopaminergic cells in the substantia nigra. Relative deficiency of dopamine. Imbalance between Dopamine  and Ach. Ach is no longer inhibited by dopamine- relative excess of dopamine.

2.This results in abnormal activity in the putamen, causing the primary features of the disease.

3.When substiantia nigra projection to putamen is impaired, the globus pallidus interna and subthalamic nucleus begin to function abnormally.

4. The result is that the brain is no longer able to sufficiently control motor function.

- Symptoms

Motor features;

1. Pill rolling tremor in hand. Also can occur with the mouth and chin. Resting tremor.

2. Bradyknesia

3.Cogwheel rigidity.

4. Postural instability and festinant gait

Non motor features;

1. Depression and anxiety

2. cognitive disorder- dimentia

3. Sleep abnormalities- REM sleep behaviour disorder

4. Autonomic disfunction- Constipation and Orthostatic hypotension

5. Olfactory dysfunction

6. Fatigue and weight loss

-Treatment and therapies

1.Combination of levodopa and carbidopa( peripheral decarboxylase inhibitor)

2.Dopamine receptor agonist; bromocriptin, pergolide, pramipexole, ropinirole, cabergoline.

3. Amantadine

4. Anticholinergic

5. Deep brain stimulation

6. Makan kacang parang @ fava bean .. cos contain levodopa

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Haha.. Got a lot of medical jargons right? Absolutely non medical personel wont understand what I wrote about.. hEE~ ampun! I just copy from my lecture notes. Just to help me memorise all those facts.

p/s : Wondering, do i manage to live up to my old age, having this disease, or any other elderly disease, or maybe I wont get all those disease beacause I did not even reach my oldies time. Hmm... what is ahead is not in my diary, not even in my head. DariNya kita datang, kepadaNya jua kita kembali.

If I were a boy ... ~ Beyonce Knowles~

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
P/s: Life is nothing to do with "if I were".. It is just the way it is. Soooo natural. Oh saya nak jadi budak pandai cam Albert Einstein gitu. Tapi think that I have problem with my memories.. Cepat sangat lupe ni n lambat sangat nak memorise things. Oh kena cari jus kurma tok guru nih...  Ke saya banyak termakan semut dulu2 nih?(Tibe2 lari topik)erk!

Day 12

Hemm... another two days make it 2 weeks. Yuhoo~ At least time is moving. Im not stucking in the what so called derealization thing. Haha.. I am all alone now. My roomate was still at Tanah Merah due to small injury. Salah geliat cane ntah time bangun tido..haha..lucu2. Okay what do I have on my 12th day?

1. As usual, I enjoy my lunch eating my fave waffle, choc + peanut... Oh it is just sooooo deliciouuusss..

2. Knit highliter casing. Haha.. Just cannot concentrate on my studies, thus I proceed with knitting.

3. Spend my night time cycling,  taking photos and have a supper at d village  together with Farah. Haha.. Jadi kutu rambu jarang2... 12.30 am baru balik bilik..hihi... ampun ibu... lapar sangat nih...!

4. balik bilik, blogging jap... Bile nak buka buku nih?... sigh~ Tapi Farah kate malam ni bulan mengambang, hmm... Now I know, nape terase jiwa kacau ini hari... Hohoho...

P/s: It is an enjoyable thing to count days. It makes U aware that time is moving nonstop. Thus dont waste any single of it.. Mean your life... Yeah..~ xoxo

Reality

Woooo~ Just found an interesting reality love quote.. Hmmm Im quite agree with those statement. Women can be really dumb in a sense. Not all but mostly ya... They prefer to be submissive. Trust wholeheartedly... Love unconditionly.. X gune kalo degree bergulung gulung, tapi matanya buta kerana cinta. Oh, wanita2...

I feel eager to write on this because, I really dont understand, Y should it goes like this. A lot, yeah! really a lot have I found, blind love. Nampak tapi wat2 x nampak. CRAZY! They have been dissociated from the reality. Is that a type of psychological defence mechanism? Or should I say Isolation of affect? Hmm, might be. Their ego mobilized the pain into subconcious mind, just to protect themself from harm. So mereka pun prefer untuk jadi bodoh...

Come on baby, wake up. Stop worrying the uncertainty. Live up! Move on! Open your eyes. This dream doesnt promising anything for U unless pain. Thats it. Oh2.

P/s: Anyone should not critic on this unless they have experienced the feeling of love. Oh, not mentioning that I have ok! This advice is written specially for me myself as well as my beloved Fatin yang baru putus cinta. Oh wake up babe!