mpi suda mareeeeyyyy~

Guess what???
we are working hard on pentomin nasyid...
extra credit n bonus given 2 nadiah n oye...
S d directornye...
Credit also given 2 all my frens yg sudi menjoinkan diri..
even had been warned earlier,
dat, a lot af times are going to be sacrificed...
In this week je pooonn.
hahahh.. tq2...
Im not hoping to be d champion,
but i am hoping that this such activity will bring us luck n hikmah.
akan menyatukan kami2..
I am not even expecting that bella n k.tifah will join us.
It such an honor for me. o wow...

netball pown...
karnival sukan psp n nurani match are waiting for us...
Tak tahu kenapa semanagat sangat nak join...
B4 ni x pernah pown nak build team o wat soeva...
But then r2, acap request 1 team from our batch...
per g, kerahan tenaga... yataaa
at last, ramai jer pon nak join...
huhu, yesterday, main suke2 with y.4 team...
so great... o wow..
huhu... Semoga memory kami2 akan terus terpahat...
4 dis, extra credit given 2 farah...
ooo yeahh... kami akan terus memanfaatkan keremajaan...

penat tapi x mau tido...~

Huhu... i took dat bas last night,

on my journey back to usm... tah peper..

bus like rapid kl g2.. ganti bas rosak kowt..

ah, at lis camat campai..

right now,

my eyes is very tired like nak mati da... but still degil nak close...

oh mater, tidolah...

buku da bukak..

x nak bace la plak... soooo kambing...

di manakah azam baruku menyorok di kala malam ini...

Huhu, ive deactivate my muka buku..

so bored...like loosing arah tuju g2...

so have 2 waste my time blogging...

malam ni like kiciwa sikit...

ah... 2moro der pbl... sgt malas...

Td g d classic ngn nad2...

enjoying my bukak puasa meal..

chickenchop 2 beb...

hahahha,,, budget western cenggiteeewww...

lame gak lepak2 n borak2..

yeaa... kami minah chat...

oh tidooolah kamuuuu...

tito

black heron... u gedik la...

Bismilahirrahmanirrahim...
Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang;;;
Ermm... so jarang i start my entries with basmalah..
Today i feel like nak wat. hee~
2night, 11 pm ill t8 my bus n headed 2 usm..
wahuk2... so sedey..
cuti da abes...
azam baru ku... kill d mukabuku...
perosak kehidupan... adus..

Erm right now in process of habiskan buku
"aku terima nikahnya"
org len da berkurun baca..
aku baru nak start baca...
at lis bace k..
ermmm... really nice book.. lots better than pemilik cintaku...
banyak gak hati tersentap dengan jawapan kepada persoalan kehidupan..
Especially dlm bab hidup beragama nih...

"Jangan kita wujudkan fitnah kepada islam itu sendiri"
Huh, terus terang aku katakan..
aku keliru, aku dekati mereka yang dekat pada islam.
Tapi atas kelemahan aku, aku kembali pada hidup aku yg suam2 kuku..
nak jadi insan yg sederhana la konon.

Sungguh aku keliru..
Islam itu rasional...
dan ada cara yang lebih hikmah untuk menentang sesuatu kemungkaran.
Aku menyokong boikot atas hiburan yang melampau-lampau.
Aku juga menyokong ats segala kritikan2 yang bernas.
amal maaruf nahi mungkar.

Tapi ada ketika,
aku terserempak dengan insan2 yang terlalu rigid beragama.
Kritikan-kritikan pedas yang pada mataku, telah hilang hikmahnya.
Tindakan yang dilabelkan "its not sooo cool" oleh sesetengah pihak.
Insan-insan yang telah mewujudkan barrier dalam bersahabat.
Hanya kerana kemungkaran.
Benar, memang benar.
Benci seseorang adalah kerana benci akan maksiatnya.
Tetapi, bukankah lebih indah kalau kita bersama menggapai tangan sahabat itu.??
Bukankah lebih indah kalau syurga itu dikongsikan bersama???
Banyak dan sungguh banyak yang telah aku temui.
Jadi insan2 seperti aku terus tersentak.
Menusuk kalbu tetapi masih dibentengi keegooan yang merugikan.

Namun, tidak semua begitu..
Aku kagum akan seorang sahabatku,
yang giat mengusrahkan kami2.
Telah aku saksikan perubahan positif dalam diri beberapa teman ku.
Sungguh aku percayakan hidayah Allah.
dan aku berusaha mencarinya.
Hanya mungkin usaha aku masih sedikit.
InsyaAllah aku akan tetrus berusaha.. amiiinnn..

Aku terima nikahnya..
Juga mengajar aku,
hati kita amat sensitif..
Rasa gelisah kepada dosa dan rasa tenang akan kebaikan.
Sememangnya aku akui...
God, jus give me more time.

What do u expect from ur life huh????

Arghhh...
20th is really like a bad omen...
Hate 2 step inside and feel the doom myself...
I once thought, life gonna be wonderful..
time to view world as a woman.
not as a girl anymore..
haha, but lil did i know,
i really dont ready for it yet.

Please...do understand me...
When i said, i hate...
I really mean it...
No more hope please...
D part which i hate the most is to hurt others.
So, please dont hurt me.
I might talk nice,
talk sweetiestly,
I might say its ok,
but it doesnt mean i allow,
giving space neither enjoying the feeling.
No.. U are dealing with wrong ex teen ager.

I am different.
Really DIFFERENT.
Its hard to describe in words.
but i am really DIFFERENT.
its not phobia... its just kinda bad feeling...

i am not a perfect human..
Jus a girl with too much weakness.
So please... do respect me...

Do have me just as a friend...
no less, no more... thus, no harm...
For those outsiders who doesnt know me,
who think i am great, ketahuilah...
itu hanya kaburan mata2....
n who think i am bad...
itu jua kerana anda tidak mengenali me well..

(special 4 outsiders)
few things about me,
to love me is to be hated...
so, be ready...
to be my love,
is to be cool with me...
sedingin salju...
which me myself cannot reach deep inside.

Semoga Allah mengampuni dosa- dosaku...
Amiiinnnn..

plan...plan... n keep on planning

at last, my sem breaks come to d end jua.
Tomorrow im going back to usm..
huhu, my life after this, are expected to be more tired..
with more responsible.. n more jobs..
huhu..
get ready ainin.. go!!!

1. ooo great dinner... bout 1 month to go... is all about everything
2. my bigsib's babies... miss u guys.. such a long time x update...
3.mpi pentomin.. seb bek ade a very dedicated director..
huh.. we aim to be d champion lak.. aja2... yeah, we can...
4.gut block.. seniour had remind me, gut gonna be harubiru skit with d lecturers...
so kna be more alert n proactive...
5.faci 4 hiv event... 1 day jer kowt... huh... seems very exciting
6.oh bigsib n ums.. paperwork da dihantar...
no follow up... no ticket booked...
no deal with ums yet.. o wow...
7. elective program... kuala lumpur sport medical centre seems to be nice too...
8. oh hubungn etnic is coming...
no more ponteng lectures... Seb bek titas dpt b.. alhamdulillah...
but kalo dpt A would be better... strive 4 hub etnic lak...
9. Special surpise... token of appreciation

Huh... planning of kesibukan dunia, x kan pernah habis...
go chase after akhirat la plak...
dunia is jus like bayang2, n akhirat tu lampu...
chasing after shadow, light is getting far behind,
chasing after light, shadow will keep lagging..
Terasa penat la dengan dunia...
My fren pon perdengarkan a very nice quote...
penat, letih,sengsara, suka, cinta dunia akan hilang after a deep sleep,
tapi kebaikan n kejahatan dunia never fade away...
thus beramallah selagi nafas dikandung badan.
teruslah hidup dengan letih...
dan mengharapkan kerehatan yang panjang di akhirat kelak..

.....................

ak minta maaf...
ak budak jer...
x pandai pon bab2 tu...
da la marah...
sedeynyer rase...
its hard 4 me to tell d truth...
walaupon org kate, biarpon pahit,
berkata benarlah...
tapi, x kan kowt...
aku x nak main ngn api...
nanti, ak sendiri yang sakit...
skrang pon da rasa sakit..
sakit sangat...
I have sacrifice my part...
its ur part la plak...
Do forgive me...

Pemilik cintaku~

Ive just finish reading "pemilik cintaku, sesudah Allah dan rasul".
A kind of very nice and short islamic novel.
Written by mdm Fatimah Syarha Mohd Nordin.
huhu, cuti2 malaysia la katakan...

I start thinking,
my mind once again analysing vigorously.
How was my life 2 be compared with her.
We both muslim, we both women, we both tied with d same aqidah..
We both disyariatkan with d same tuntutan.
The only difference is, shes married,
n im single... unavailable...~ hahaha

But d way im living on,
d way i express myself is ..
terlalu berbeza dengan dia...
I was too fanatic chasing after d sukaduka of dis temporary life.
It was too beatiful in d eyes of me.
I was not greedy..
Not greedy to hope 4 better n d best,
Akhirat selamanya.
Menyesalkah aku???

Sahabat2ku, Dayah, farah, Alia is getting better..
much2 better than me,
kemanakah aku,
2010 is traking nearer..
I wish i could be a better person.

Doa pengasih
"Ya Allah jadikanlah hamba-Mu ini menyintai orang beriman dan jadikanlah orang yang beriman menyintaiku"

Doa which i suppose to read everyday,
everytime every after my pray...
tapi have i ever read???, have i ever ask???
x pernah pon... MASYAALLAH...
Terasa jahil sesangat..
Ainin, tolonglah...
I just wanna ask 2 things from u,
amal n istiqamah...
dats all...
do it for me... do it 4 ur own self...
InsyaAllah.... go ainin.. aja2 fighting...

Just mark it as a memory~

Krisis air di usm kk

waa... Selanjar 1 is stepping nearer..
feel so scared n like nak menyerah jer...
grup study satu rase ni akhirnya study dalam kegembiraan....
study sikit, memain banyak...
yeah, avoid stresss...
notes still membukit...
huhuk...
dala, H2O crisis tngah menyerang..

Seb bek ari tu der terbaca entri kat blog oli..
how to survive in darurat..
hahahax~
prob with wudu' jer act..
nak bertapak kedesa lain, so far away n malas jale.

So seperti penceritaan oli di blog beliau,
kami pon membeli 1 mineral water kat kdai cik din..
N surprisingly, air tu macm ajaib...
sx wuduk mmg pakai like 1 gelas je.
carenyer...
1x setiap 1 anggota...
n wat yg wajib jer.
syarat dyer ratakan air tu, n jangan angkat tangan slgi x rata.
Terasa sungguh islam itu mudah je sebenarnya.
knapalah b4 ni, pembaziran air sangat berleluasa..
Terase cam 1 new xprience sungguh...

untuk pau..

Hidop ni lagi best dr dye tau...

hahah...

dye tu x best pon...

budget best jer...

u r cuter, kind, n bnyk ag best features...

wahahahx...

Today i am happy...

sangat hEpi!!!!!

n makin hepi..

u know what, u r making my life brighter...

fell like back to my own self... full of life..

Previously, i tot dat, my life mmg g2, so pathetic.

But now, u make me realise, happiness is everywhere.

i dont have to be home just to feel it.

U said that, im different from my previous self at pasum..

aaahh.. i realise it 2, but now, here i am.....

N now...

going to face selanjar 1..

still be my own self in aspect of kemalasan belajar..

wahahahax... kalolah bley jd serajin mira n setekun aina..

huhuu..

what can be describe??? mystery will be kept as mystery.. ijust wanna say, for this time being, i really 66.88.111.1/1.2.1.11.7/8.1.1313.1010.1.11~

photos stories

i wish to give dis letter to somebody.... but ill keep until one fine day~

This is birthday present from my dad.. tq much.. luv it

cheerioo~ live life to the fullest!!!

My 20th birthday... thanx to my she 4 organising dis sweet party... hahah

satu cerita

wawwaawa...(luv dis now)
hahha... smlm i update my fb relationship status to:
in relationship with mohamad shafiq...weeee~
caya ker????
ada satu kisah di sebaliknya...
i said oredi, my lovey dovey life is so much complicated...
no one would understand,
me either x berape pehe with myself...
yg pasti, i hate biler der people **** me...
lets just me yg usha org..wawawa...(luv dis now)
ala ami!!! tapi nape budak tu gitu...
i hate all d pictures... really obscene...
rosak my reputation...
daaa~ camtu tu ke my boyfriend.
isk3... ops beraninye, ainin bercerita di blog ini,
ak harapkan dy membaca... huhu...
tapi dy x kan bacer kot...
i prefer x der org visit, so dat, snng la i nak berceita apa saje..
huhu...
2day, 25 nov is mira birthday...
we celebrate at 1 restaurant... romantik seyy kdainye...
makey cheese cake... so sweet~hahah

aku bermain dengan api...janganla mmbakar diri~

23 nov 2009, ainin lari dari bermain dengan api...
tapi dia memilih masuk dalam oven...
still terasa panas... uwwaaa...~
I got no choice. In life, we have 2 sacrife even d most important thing.
I sacrificed my heart... my feeling...
just not to broken others...
im doing escapism...
i wish i could be more telus....its torturing me inside,
kalolah mereka mengetahui...
huk3... tenanglah ...

kugumbiraan yg ilang...kanku cari pulang!!!

hahha... nothing is everlasting in da world...
moment by moment kita face,
sometimes ada tawa sometimes ada tangis,
times keep moving...
Aku rasa dia da berubah..
my sensitive emotion is analysing again...
i am not a perfect gurl...
far away a good fren...
i cannot promise anything...
but i can give my best..
Just, dont hate me..
dont treat me me like i am d one yang menyakitkan...
kalaulah aku mengetahui...

hari ni, time solat asar terdengar dialogue akak pencuri tu with her collegues...
badmouth bout me...
ikot ati, nak show berani n appear in front of her...
terkedu agaknye dy...
But , ive made my mind not to prolonge dis matter anymore...
sabar~
I went 2 see dr fuad tadi...
have sort of sharing session...
I like him very much... as my caunselor la..
talking to him, like talking to my other fren..
feeling free 2 citer ape2 jer.
n i love his humbleness...
esok, dy ajak makan kat umah dy..
sume bg sib la... der open house sket..
huhu... wish a cheerful day 4 me 2moro~

ainin tengah suka hati

bukti my enset back 2 work... daulah~

yooo~ wuusup...

I returned home dis passed weekend..

enjoyed my time preciously with my family~

thanx mom n dad~

DISASTER!!!

Dr Fuad wanna see me. ayoyo~

I suppose 2 go to big sib camp.

but, i bought tiket balik umah last minute instead...

try u imagine, kol 9 mlm khamis gitu... tnga makan kfc lagi ngn aina n mira...

kol 10 mlm i made my mind nak balik..

i called mira n asked her help 2 acmpany me cari tiket at langgar.

Lucky me, tiket ade..kol 11... bju n da readi dlm kete da.. YEA!!

huhu~ fam prob... haha~ dats true...

Peperpon, i wish d besh 4 them..

n i gain d best 2..

KENAPA AININ HAPPY~

because dye da relieve her omesick...

so balik ni, lot of things 2 be settled..

-psp project,

-study~ exam da dekat wooo~

-enset da settle, life back no normal cheer mode...

-nak amik ignore situation jer ngn akak pencuri 2...

wish her insaf n repent cepat...

dis is latest quote in my life~

stop analyzing bad side~ hunt 4 good la plak... heee~

pusing~

I feel like really a bad girl..
I try my best 2 cri d henset...
i force d makcik to mngaku bersalah jgk.
i ugut dye, if dye, x nak ngaku,
ill report to police...
Do i am a really bad girl????
i have alot of evidence to tduh dye...
Just, dye still x nak ngaku..
She even said" mengo ko mu ni"
oh Allah... I am really sorry..
X perla, sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah...
Allah itu maha Adil...
kita akn berjumpa kat akhirat nanti..
huhu... somehow, my mind really serabut ni...
Luckily, my car da siap service... plan 2 amik enset kat kdai ptg ni.
I really feel heartless now...
Nothing 2 ease me..
i am really dissapointed with myself.. huhu
I feel like sangat malas nak work with my ketua.
He even doesnt ask me a thing bout given task...
life like heaven... i wish so...
huhu, malas nak g kelas gak nih...
semalam i ajak farh main badminton kat dewan aerobik...
hahha, kna tegor ngn pak cik tu da...
x ley main kat situ... cedey~ dewan bad rmai ore laki...
Somewhat, i have 2 main, 2 release my mind...
projek psp ni, pon x gerak g...
ainin oh ainin...
suker tangguh kerja...
susanya, nak pikir konsep n theme~
i wanna do my best...
n make d day, an unforgotton one...
Common ainin, chayok2...

fight pakcik! fight

huhu...
alhamdulillah ct 4 2day went smoothly.
Dr shameem is a very nice dr.
n i got a very nice patient too.
Dis is 1st heart attack for en aziz..
he is young ...
jus 36 years old.. too young too have myocardial infarction..
huhu... life is really unsacarable~
My tears also feel like wetting my cheek.
I imagine his future life..
What chances do he has.
i have no answer.
He have a very happy family and d youngest son, 5 years old.
After d session ended, he asked 4 BO.
N then, d nurse n dc doesnt allow him 2 go 2 toilet.
He had 2 do it at the bed.
of cos with tirai tertutup.
Pity of him.. I understand how does he feel~
But, not a bit pon, i can share d sadness...
He still portray a nice smile..
Fight pakcik... fight...
u must live longer...

Peoples are seeking for smile

Peoples have to do alot of things.
sometimes we are happy doing it.
sometimes we are not.
But, we know life keep going.

As we crawl,
we knew, we are moving.
Step by step, we are still moving.
We are searching... searching for everything we wish to.
Searching for smiles.

Then they start grouping.
Because people know, we get stronger when we are in group.
We knew that there must be someone to rely on,
When we are tired of crawling.

Life is not a competition.
It is not about who own the sweetest smile,
It is not about the frequency of smiling.
It is all about the way we define smile itself.

I define the smile as a gift.
I am happy if i can make others smiling.
I am happy if others can make me to smile.
Even when i am tired,
recieving or giving this gift can cheer me up.
With this, I am happy even if crawl alone.

Just, dont let d past, passed..
keep it, lead it~

ct on ischemic heart disease

not in spirit of blogging recently...
cannot take pic.. lol
clinical teaching oh ct...
2day, jannah n vithia present an old female with ischemic heart disease case.
dr Shapawi, a cardiologist very busy one but besh...
2day homework...
ischemic cardiac chest pain
location : central, difuse
radiation : jaw, neck, shoulder, arm (occasionally back)
character : tight, squeezing, choking
precipitation : exertion n emotion
relieving fc : rest, quick response 2 nitrates
ass. feature : breathlessness

n he asked us 2 find bout "new york heart association functional classification"..
class 1: no limitation drg ordinary actvt
2: slight limitation " "
3:marked limitation of normal actvt but no symptoms at rest
4:symptoms at phy actvt n may b present at rest

Mary asked y d mak cik eyes cam der whitish ring surround d cornea..
dc kata itu adalah "archus senilis"...
oh upanya itu adlh fat deposition.. older people slalu der..

Yes... I just bought my stathescop.. haha..
br semangat nk g ct..
here, d nerdy one improved..P

i hope it is a dream~

Healthex just reached the tirai penutup.
Life is truly enjoyable this few days.
No books, no notes, no pe...no studies..
everything is just about breast ca.
huhhuuhu..

su's handset together with my sim card had been stolen.
call2, at last, rini an aunt angkat..
when i said dat i had lost my phone,
dy trus ltak n off d phone
my car's petrol tube pecah n i had 2 sent it 4 service
wh i dont know ble ley dpt lik.
my supernova rosak lagi...
n x ley antr kdai .. no kete.
huhu... life is terribly messy.
seb bek hidup ni besh..

ri2 g kilang budu..
di hari yg panas..
mmg pengalaman yg bermanfaat.

My heart cannot stand these~

my 2nd, 3rd, 4th ...heart...my feeling's store

Have u ever feel, hate of being urself..
erm.. i felt it alot..
I had a very easily crack heart..
It cannot hold too much feeling.
Thus, its making me damn sensitive person.
I cannot be too happy, too much laugh,
otherwise, ill be crying at the end.
I cannot face sadness,
So ill end up with lying.
Just to make them happy.
I cannot stare into eyes,
then i will be hating.
I cannot be pampered,
otherwise, I will be rejecting.
These feeling is torturing me.
I just want to be cool.
Miliki hati sekeras batu.
Assertive and more transparent...
Thus, i always hoping.. dat i am an invisible human..
no one will notice me and no one will care about me.
I just want to be free from those feeling.
Is there any treatment or manouvers that can help me???.

warkah buat nadnad

that windy night,
after aishah had successfully spoiled nad's birthday surprise,
they did it..
jejalan...memaakan...bebaling air busyuk n kejar- kejaran.
me, s usual, kaki sibuk jer..

warkah buat kamu,
PASUM menjadi tirai cerita kita.
Setia kamu menanti Zurith di kerusi itu. ( kusi kat bawah 2...tyme nak g tuto)
Setia kamu bersama kelompok sahabat2 seseri mu.
Setia kamu bersama S3..
dan bersama kesetiaanmu, aku kenali kamu.
heee..

Bulat...
Mari berusaha sama2..
Menjadi insan yg berilmu di dada.
Terus tersenyum bila sekeliling berduka..
Terus tersenyum bila ada yang menyakiti.
Terus tersenyum biarpun air mata ingin mengalir.
Terus tersenyum biarpun mereka mengatakan tidak.
Terus tersenyum biarpun mereka berpaling.
Dan jangan sesekali kita yang menyakiti..

Suatu masa, masa, keadaan atau apa sahaja..
mungkin menjarakkan kau dan aku..
namun ingat, telah kita ikatkan tali ukhuwah itu..
Sejauh mana terpisah, kita masih bernaung di bawah akidah yang sama.
Kita masih menyembah tuhan yang Esa...
oleh kerana itu, ingatlah aku..
sebagai seorang sahabat..
kasihku kerana Allah, kasihmu kerana Allah..
Bersamalah kita mengejar keredahaanNya..
~ ayat2 di waktu pagi yg hening n bosan melampau~
But seriously no joke!

aku punya raya yg ke 20 kali

Aku beraya lagi!
At least tahun ni, x bangun kol 12 noon like last year.
sempat solat raya n mandi sunat raya.
So, dis is my 2nd raya s budak medik yg nerd.
again..purple again...
its not me who make d choice after all.
balik2, my grandmom, da bli kain n mok long da jahit suda~

here n there, peoples talked, "nila anok abe pa hok duk kube kerie tu??"
erm, ore kg mmg respek dc...
errrrmmm..... lambat lagi meekkk weeiii...
doala ko ambo biar selamat..
K. norli asked me bout psoriasis..
K. ni asked me bout delivery.
Abe mi oyak... dc nini, x soh dok pisohla mok n anok selagi mok x raso sakit beranok.
Selame lame ibu mengandung 4 years, (maryam)
n sesingkat pregnancy, 2 lahzoh...2 ketika..
bt, tetau jela, ibu bila da lepas due, dc akan inject ubat,
2 pecahkan amnion n induce ibu bersalin..

Ika plok admitted 2 ward. Suspected with appendicitis..
Again, people were directing 2 me..
ask me dis n dat...
Sebisa mungkin aku cuba untuk menjawab, n d rest" nini x taula, x blajo g"
But nila kepuasan yg aku rasa..
ilmu aku untuk dikongsi, bukan lagi 4 exam purpose cam dulu.
Terima kasih tuhan!

half day at Pusat pemulihan dalam komuniti

'Fad nak ikut'....

huuu... at last after pujuk aisyah, akhirnya disini kami.

Joined 8th n 9th group doing their field visit in tumpat, kelate.

x malu toll..

act im from 1st pbl grup n aisyah 15 kot.

but i bet ramai x tau pon.

except fad, acap n kautsar.

Seb bek pn sofea bg ikut. heee~

lor...ambo plok hok bagi ucapan aluan...x menahan.

Syamimi was having cerebral pulsy since she was 1 years old.

after having high grade fever n several fitting.

n now she is 5 years old.

oh...ak kagum akan ayahnya.

seorang nelayan biasa. Tapi padaku beliau seorang ayah yang luarbiasa.

Its remind me how thankful we are.

N for all becoming mother's, do take care of pregnancy carefully

especiallly on d diet things.

Ak hanya mampu mengharapkan , they'll grown up and able 2 independent.

Kelengkapan yang serba kurang, namun aku bangga akan pengerusinya.

En jalaluddin... sungguh berusaha~

senja bersama mek ti

suatu senja,
su tanye....
y do i love be alone??...
huhu...
yeah, compared 2 my elder sister n both my younger brothers,
im quite a lonely person...
huhhu.. i just feel happy live in dat way..
i hate crowd... i hate hipocrit human..
n i really hate being scolded by peoples..
dis is d life i choose..
during my school days, i love hiding myself in class kosong...
g ssp, i spent my prep time in d newspaper room.
Then, jaja came...
We studied sejeq 2gether...
hahha...
oih memory~

aduhai adik-adik

I wonder.....
How things goes in d future.

Syirah said, she dreams to become a..., jual2 kat men2 cam k.inin.
pastu nok jadi polis...
heee~ citer2 tyme budak...
aduhai adikku~

Me s well dreamed of becoming a teacher, pakar forensik, actress once.
n at last, here am i... anggun in kebaya putih berantaikan stateskop.(sooner la)
hahha...

Iji..
still unsure of what he want to be.
engineer should be ok... juruukur pon boleyla... ni yg dye kate.
Yg pasti, still playstation n handset are his priority.
aduhai adiiku~

adik we...
few positive changes portrayed..
yeah, s he joined mpp at MRSM Bentong.
Somehow, still mssge3x...games3x...
aduhai adikku~

No matter what...
Growing up. u guys will see the world better.
wishes from ur sis....
Good luck n keep ur feet stayed on d ground n keep reaching d star.
Theres owes a sing for those who wish 2 song..
( Curi from JJ Quote)
hhheeee~

At last, he did it...Welcome back....
He actually my ex senior during my sk time.
Hes quite prominent figure with lambat bangun tido case...
berdiri infront during morning row call..
But somehow got powerful brain...
Today...after long time he menyepi di dapur,
he woke from d habit...
he just like himself on d old time today.....
congratulation...

I do need changes...
Getting tired of my routine..
So, im arranging my life..
making some alteration..
I just wanna be happy~

kami ke wakaf che yeh

I was hell semangat nak stud last night.
Then Hikmah mssge mira ask her 4 nite out at wakaf che yeh ngn nini , pijoh, umi, midah, semak,iffah, aien n asiah n dayah yg berspek spare ungu..
Huh.. cair imanku...ikutla... per gi..
then, sepantas kilat, call Nad.. cukopkan korum..: )
"tapi ak x ty ayah ak g" kata Nad...
what a great daughter... fuuuyyyoooo~
sejuk her mom's womb..
then ikot jugek at last..

"Masok...pilley"10 X..
waa.. rezeki abe masok piley...
rm150 masok sebab borongan sahabat2 q..
nok rayo keeeeeyyyy!!!

aien n me x beli gapo pon..
huuu... absolutely, my mom dont allow me shopping da~
By joining d crowd pon, dats more than enough...
merasai kesonokan...

balikk...
gi makan puleeexxx..
pecah perut..
then i asked mira 2 drive cos i x confident sangat...
Heaven nye laju..
nini, pijoh n mira ...~ fuyyooo~
but really x senang duduk..
i just safe feelin safe with my dad jer if aksi memecut ni...
not even with my sis..
prefer 2 be kura2 suda...

at last kol 2am sampai...
make2,,,sahor2...tido...
jam loceng 1 minggu suda x function..
argh...subuh kura2 lagi~

~kalaulah hidup itu semudah abc~

abah
#suka bawa kami g jejalan
#selalu pecut from kl 2 kuantan less than 2 hours
#suka kete2 (bmw antiks pon)
#panggil i Z time kicik ( dulu pernah mintak tukar nama kpd azlina cos suka dat name vr much)
#kalo tanye nak g mane... slalu kata nak g "legeh". till now not sure where it is.

mom
#pandai wat kek n roti ( bakat yg x diwarisi anak2)
#slalu jadi model make up syirah
#suka berkebun
#jahit tudung ikin
#suka wat stok barang dapur

my pbl mates 4 2009 n 2010 plus faiz, yuan zhi, fire, mary, tey n vithiaa.

aien yg beroedema sangat bes bila dipicit..
suka men game... n baca komik

sarjan mira yg sangat pandai n kuat drift....
hantu game 2...so ganas cam gang kutu2.

aena si hantu fashion. got lots dresses...
love smiling....

hikmah yg x pernah marah n cute...
banyak gossip nih.. "ngn faris la...."

no matter how n wat... love being ur buddy...
lets work up 2gether heading d GOAL!~

mmmmuah~~~~ expression of love...diii~

ini projek raimi n nad2

after hardships, there must be smile waiting at the end.. huhu... SMILE~
Nad2 n I went searching 4 minyak tanah kol 7..
Huhu... nak pasang pelita la kunun..
at last buka puasa ngn coconut jelly kat petronas.
Then sambung cari minyak tanah...
haha... klakonyer.. g mintak kat bazar, restoran n stesen minyak..
Feel like desperate housewife..
At the moment other peoples enjoying their meal, kami mencari minyak tanah.
Akhirnya tetap hampa..
peperpon sweet memory terlakar~

hEPi MothERs Day 2005

Haha.. 2day is not mothers day pon.. just finished belek my old diaries n found dis card. I made on d 2005 n i dont even give it 2 my mom...

Act i keep many others card which i wish 2 give 2 somebody but dont brave enough 2 givee.. What a coward kind of heron.. always hiding inside d wings saje..hahaha.. Card 4 albert n cg skool galing 2 pn der. Hee.. cg per ntah... bermate 4 n nek motor herley davindson gitu.. fuyyooo~

Just deactivate my fb account..Killin lots of ma time. huh! disaster beb.. But terasa sayang namun harus kuat..

While belek my diaries, found gak notes from shumai.. heee... What a so sweet moment with lots of chocs n glc (gud luck gift).. I jer yg neva appreciate dat moment. Huh... how was she yer skunk... 2 years passed oredi.. Lots of things has changed. huhu.. I pon da adapt sket ngn sayang menyayangi nih... da~

aKU jUGa IngiN PuNYa JeRSI

D black shone d light... Yeah, Tasneem own a jersi. At last. My 1st one.. yata!! Its so smart n I like it very much.. Nad pon kate..." ala, nin ty la akasah ley bli agi x???"

lupe lak nk ty dye. duiii! Black is always significant with evil. I dont like black sangat. But dis time, its different,. Time kebangkitan of Black Heron.Wake in d dark n search 4 d traffic light.. huha~

Feel very proud 2 own dis.. N really hope 2 c baju batch one day.. Hatif oh Hatif. Per kabo baju 2.. Pity of him. Too many things 2 handle, n yet lady boss Heron ni asyik menghantui dia saja.. Ampun yer nak~

Asthmatic patient chest radiograph show, darker at the lung, anterior ribs is more horrizontal n diaphragm inflattion... Status athmaticus is severe type of asthma n yet life threatening n patient doesnt respon to bronchodilator nmore. Inhaled B agonist n orticosteroid is given. N if symptoms worsen, d patient might be intubated n further treatments are given.

GilA- gILa RemAJA

D hooded happy day bear is a gift from jaja.. Time move so fast, n now jaja is no longer here with me s we are struggling in chasing after our ambitions.. Huhu, damn miss our moment... gila-gila remaja. oh.. with ur disgusting sputum moment.. iyuuu~Adah surely remember dis till death. Haha..

Im nearly 20 years old.. Just about 2 accelerate 2 gear 4 oredi. Ayooo~

Ever heard about Johari window??

Dr. Fuad tell me, theres alot of spaces i should improve to widen the window.

Its all about, our secret self, shared self, potential self, and public self. And to widen the window, there is a way that can be considered into. Feedback from others. Oh .. dis is d most part which is hate d most. I hate critician from others... Its stabing straight into cardiac. N to give d feedback also, we face risk of critician rejecion which we might ended with loosing a friend.

Why did im saying all these.. Gila2 remaja. haha. need 2 widen my window.. yeah, better be ready 2 get into adult life... NO matter what, i just want to be happy~

Ramadhan 2009

big sib camp with 1st year at taman rehlah, pasir puteh

These are all my small sibs. They are all very nice and cool ladies and gentlemen. I love all of them. Its fun knowing abu, adib, prem, jia rong, anis, nida, aisyah,sara, lia and ann. They remind me of my own siblings.

My days did go flowerish with them...hahha.. I just dont know, why i love them too much. Perhaps they respect me well and they can make me smile. Argghhh,,,its hard for me to smile recently, but they make it.

Usm menjerit at last was the first runner up in the group task given. I dont really care about the the winning thing actually. I just care how much time we have meant together. I really hope, they can get together always and forever. Its hard to find great team, but they did already. We build friendship with laugh, and never ever break it with tears... Selamat berjuang menghadapi tahun 1 yeah...cool~

introducing my 2nd blog...yuhuuuuu

yeah...welcome into my bureau!. I have created a door special for all of u to come and join me nourishing the world. Lets start with a pen..huhu....finish all the ink!