Good bye 2011, welcome 2012

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

For all the 2011 memories, I thank Allah.
For giving me the chance for living in 2012, I thank Allah

Prove me

THAT I AM WRONG!

Trust

Hahahah..

It is so funny if you know where I place my trust is.. 

It is nowhere to be seen, but it is there.

Securely stay still..

I hope it will forever reside there.

Oh how I wish.

Journal CFCS 2

16/12/2011

I bought them for Abby.
I want her to write down her disease progression.
Her responds towards chemotherapy.
Her emotional state.
Her memory towards her beloved family.
Yeah, she is still a small child.
But I guess her brain arent as small as her body appeared to be.
Chayookkk!! fighting

p/s :  Note book Rm 3.40 ; colour pencil RM 2.50 ; pen Rm1.90....
hahaha... semangat catat rege... bukan ape, senang untuk documentation nanti... hihu..

Journal CFCS : 1

1/12/2011
First contact :  6 Utara

Raja Siti Syazwani (Abby), 8years old Malay lady from Kelantan.
presented with chief complaint of prolong fever which never subside after taking antibiotics and paracetamol associated with severe lethargy.
Blood investigation and bone marrow aspiration were done and confirmed ACUTE LYMPHOBLASTIC LEUKEMIA. 


Her mother treat me nicely but not Abby.
She stared at me as if I was a threat to her.
I guess next time I shouldnt wear white coat to approach her.




14/12/2011
2nd contact : Home (father) and 6 Utara (patient)

I have done a home visit.
House condition proved that they are from lower sosioeconomical status.
Parents were still in shock state and trying to understand what is Leukemia and how will the disease progress.


 Abby has been transferred to isolated room after started with chemotherapy.
She get used to me already. She was smiling but never talk to me.




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p/s : 

Ask me why I choose Leukemia patient?


He is the reason

On the left side, is my late brother who left us at the age of 3 y.o.
I never met him. He passed away when I was still not born.
My mom said, he passed away in a month duration after diagnosed with Leukemia but he is not treated.


Hmm... I wish I can do something to Abby.
The least, I hope I can add on smiles to her face.

O&G EOP

Alhamdulillah . Everything went well I guess after all the pressure.

I was just about to drown, I was just about to give up.

But a single saying from dr Fuad, "Hold on" saved me.

Love from my family inspired me.

Support from my friends encouraged me.

And message from 'somebody' cheered me.

Its gonna be paed in line.

I wish I could survive well also in this posting.

:)

I am done!
With my unintentionally poor attendance and bad attitude, I think I am done this time.
I am scared to death that Dr will failed me due to my attendance.
Oh dear, I just miss my ward round 2 times and 1 case presentation.
But, tell u , O&G (other posting as well) damn strict.
Its not about u are an A student in studies, it is about u are an A student in attitude perspective.

But nah!
I will keep striving.
There is no word give up in my life.
I wont let those silly mistakes to break my hopes.
I have a dignity that I have to combat for.
And my dignity requires me to keep stand still, unshakenly in whatever situation are.
Because I am me. :)