Time explode!!!

I yelled..
she prayed..
They sighed...
ArggHHH!!! oh my god!!! HUH!!!

Why ?what happened doc?
Arghhh.. Ask me not please...
Ok I wont..
Keep this closed.. nO!! i should tell u
N i want to...............................

Pasni, study hard tau...
Jangan ponteng2 lecture dah...
Pay xtra attention in pbl, csc n so on..
Finish all the notes...
bukak la reference book...
N practice PE bebanyak k..

ohhhoo...
Exam mode...
Now 2.50 pm..
and I have mcq paper 2morow..
N yet i dont finish my notes lagi....
N i fell like writing...
ahhhaaa... writing is my essence~
I can keep writing with the hopes all the notes akan terbaca dengan sendirinya..
Big bang! Explode! Run! Time expode!

Ok stop being ridiculous...
take back d megaloblastic anemia note now..
N leave this time killer machine..
Orait mom..
Shud i say bye now?? Yeah Think I should..
Ok B, c u tomoro..
cheers~

This moment

Tick...tick...tick...
Clocks keep ticking...
We keep moving.
Im gonna end my 2nd year as medical student soon.
3 rd year is coming.

How I wish I could rest for a while.
Stop the world from spinning.
Take a deep breath ...
And get rid all the carbon dioxide and all the tiredness out of my diary.
And get the flapping tremor negative finding.

Tick...tick...tick...
I keep walking...
Keep walking in the sunny world which is created for me.
Thought that the sun wont burn me up.
Thought that the rainbow will appeared at the end of my journey.

How I wish,
In all the difficulties,
In all the lethargies,
there is no loss of hope,
and at last i keep on striving...

And WE keep on breathing~

Secret...shhhh..

What is ur biggest secret in ur life huh???
Shh... it is a secret.. dont tell it loud.
Come closer n have a whisper on my ear..

Oh my!!!
I have bundles of mine and i kept them all in my diaries.
But now im thinking of editing the setting...
To reveal few of them..
Turning d secret to not a secret anymore.
Okaaay!! Let me see which I can share with U guys...

1. I took a toy from my mom's friend's house without her knowing.. ( Better say I stole it).
That was happenned in my younger day which I dont remember when was it exactly. I hold it tight in my hand afraid of my mom will know it. I love the toy very much. It is a small walksvagen car toy model.

2. I hate a person very much. I am not able to forgive that person till now. How much I tried, how much I tell me myself that I can forgive him, I still cannot... That person is the reason for everything. Reason for why I was being extra cautious. Reason for why I cannot forgive myself either. Reason for why I fell like #sepak2perutdie#. Reason for why I cannot have even a glance on them....(rase like nak abuuugit jer die tuh)

3. I was the reason how my sister's novel lost... ( Sis, u kan ade cari ur novel, tajuk ape ntah, saying dat u cannot find it at home one time ago... actually I lend it to someone time I keje kat men2 n that person did not return to me till now... heheheh... pengakuan berani mati punye ni) Please dont get angry when you read this, later I will buy U new one... heee~ ampuuunnn kuyinggg...

4. I actually get my Kancil hitted by other cars two times which left the kemek marks on both side. It was happened in the same week on my first month of getting the licence. Sorry mom, I will keep using the Kancil as I can in this 4 years time instead. I wont demand for any other car.. (ceh!!! budget boleh la kalo mintak pon..heee)

5. I cut an old trousers just to design my own T shirt... Huu... again sorry mom. I saw the old trousers was left unused, its okay right... hahhah.. I wont do it again either. Next time I cari kain compang camping jer...

Okay, thats all what I can think right now. There are much which I cannot share it yet. Just wait the time to reveal it naturally.. hehehheh... Ape2 pon, secrets make awoman, woman...

Pehe2 ar...~ it is hurting u know~

Okay... my post dis tyme is about U.. U.. ..n U...
I dont care who u care more or less..
I dont care who u like or hate..
I dont care either motorcycle or car...
what I care is u hurt me..
N U make me feel like im so desperate n cheap..
Its not an ego okay...
Its just I wanna tell U how much I thank U 4 putting my pride under ur feet.
Thanks a lot dude..

I am happy if U are happy.
Because U are my friend.
A friend which I regard as ONLY FRIEND...
Once I tell U, we are friend forever we are friend.
I wont lick my own spit laa.
I dont know if it is my fault to be dumb and stupid in this kind of thing..
But that is how I am..
Dont expect me to understand thoroughly everything that revolve around me..
N just wanna let U know, your words are hurting me very much..

( Mode tengah x puas hati... next time jangan buat lagi... I forgive U)

the problem is.....I LOVE U VERY MUCH

The greatest gift from god to a person like me is U.
U have turn me to be the person as i am today.
Yes, I am a soft hearted daughter, suke merajuk, a good listener
but come to be the worst in expressing feeling..
I still remember of doing the mothers day card and which I posted it here,
too shy to give to U... hahah..
And my first gift to U on mothers day is something like hair clipper.
Costed me n my sis RM2 which I considered expensive already when I was in standard 2.
I bought in Kooperasi Sekolah ABIM..
N when we get home, my sis n me, pushing each other to give the gift.. hahha
But somehow, now I have improved a bit.
At least I was the no 4 out of 5 siblings wishing happy mothers day this year.

Mom,
sorry for everything that hurt U.
Sorry for everything that U wanna say to me but U are not just because x nak bagi I merajuk.
Sorry for each phone credit which I didnt use to call U.
Sorry from my weakness which make me damn shy to tell U how much "I luv U" and " I am sorry"

Thank you because be my angel....~
Happy mothers day

Dari segenap penjuru kehidupan

Dis pic was taken at 2.30 am at d classic. Kami x lapar, but kami mahu lepak!!! Pasni tanak wat dah.... Kami bukan kutu rayau.. Alhamdulillah nothing bad happened. But still its not nice 4 girls to hang out in d wee hour.. Ok loiter no more~

This is a pic of me n my cousin, K.long.. She is super great. Sacrifice a lot to accompany my grandma at kg, not pursuing her studies just because to look after my grandma. My 12 hours experience as safety guard make me feel like celebrating hari pak guard sedunia.. I luv USM pak guard... Sangat dedikasi n baik hati.. Owes look after of us tyme main malam2 kat court,,, hhuuu.. my k.long pesan, dont call her mak guard.. So annoying... olryte bosh..

Ni la an unknown creature.. D sfety guard have to make a round n lock dat alien thing which i x faham what n how does it function..

My cousins.. atif, atikah n hakim.. cutenyer~

Experience at Golok... Naik perahu, eat beras from own planted paddy... Love d artistic value of the house... So nice.. I got d heel

Takziah buat arwah Aminul... tapi saya masih sayangkan polis malaysia~

Takziah buat keluarga Allahyarham adik Aminul Rasyid.
Semoga Allah mengampuni dosa2 beliau dan bersemadilah dengan aman di sana.
Berbaur hati ini mengikuti rentetan peristiwa yang membawa kepada kematian arwah.
Sungguh, mati itu pasti.
Pelbagai cara dan akibat.. ia tetap menghampiri...

Yang pergi biarkan pergi.
Namun yang hidup ni,
ambillah iktibar dan jadikan pengajaran.
Biarkan roh arwah bersemadi dengan tenang.
Saat ini, ramai pihak menyalahkan pihak polis.
Sehinggakan kpn kita pun diserang bertalu talu.

Aku sedih melihatkan pergolakan ini.
Kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga..
Habis kredibiliti pihak polis dipersoalkan..
Aku juga mahukan keadilan.
Tapi bencilah manusia itu kerana kekhilafannya
bukan kerana dirinya waimma kaum kerabatnya.
Aku harapkan masalah ini dapat diselesaikan dengan hikmah
dan memberikan ketenangan di semua pihak.

Semoga kau berbahagia di sana, adikku...

Diabetes Mellitus

Diabetic foot ulcer

Erm...

Entering 7U ward... its common 2 see patient with diabetic foot ulcer/ gangrene..

Worst, ade ulat2 comel meratah daging daging itu...

Actually ramai yang x tahu n x faham what is diabetes actually

n how can it lead to those above pictures condition...

Diabetes Mellitus type 2 is very2 common in Kelantan.

faktor genetic, pemakanan, gaya hidup play significant roles.

Peperpon, 2 ciri metabolic defect are:

Sel2 da tanak respon 2 insulin (insulin resistance)

and Beta sel x berfungsi( kurang rembesan insulin)...

Pathogenesisnye unknown...

Maka... kalo kome makan banyak sangat karbohidrat, gula, lemak....

maka banyak la glucose dalam darah kome...

Sepatutnye glucose (gula) ni akan masuk dalam sel2 kita untuk dijadikan simpanan..

bukan merayap dalam darah..

Nak masuk dalam sel, nid insulin as kunci 2 bukak pintu...

Tade insulin, merayaplah gula2 dalam darah tu...

So glucose2 ni akan deposit dekat blood vessel and attract la microorganism...

So kalo kome luke sikit jer kat kaki tu, nak sembuh kemain susah..

So bakteria2 suke la dok situ..

especially Staphylococci aureus spp..

dok situ, n terhasil la abscess ( air bisa)

N progress jadi sangat teruk...

If tisu da mati,(blackish) kena la remove them tru debridement...

Dats y ade kes kaki kene potong n so on...

Tadi my patient kate die da x minum air manis da...

minum air masak jer...

Silapnya, nasi still makan banyak.. x kontrol...

Tu silapnye, dr lupe nak pesan kot,

all sweet food, carbohydrate, lemak, pisang kna la cut sikit...

x semestinye gula jer...

ermmm... tulah ade sakit, tapi x paham sakitnye tu cane...

So kekawan, amalkan gaya hidop sihat...
Bersenam selalu, kontrol diet

n amalkan penjagaan kaki dengan baik if yg da der diabetes tu...

nak citer lanjut, bace nota laaa...

Allahyarham Meor Ahmad Fuad ~ Kembalilah dengan aman kepada Tuhanmu~

2 weeks ago,

dunia gempita dengan pemergian Allahyarham Din beramboi..

Tiada lagi teletah spontan beliau di pagi hari..

Im not going to talk about him..

Im going to talk about Leptospirosis...

The late Din was died not because of leptospirosis instead because of dengue fever..

But Malaysian start opening their eyes and mind on leptospirosis..

What is with the disease and how can the disease shut our body system,

lead to comatose, just like dengue fever.....how baby...HOW???

I first heard about this disease on my trip to pusat tahanan sementara PATi

(pendatang tanpa izin)

My cousin who once worked as RELA told me,

Penyakit air kencing tikus ni is very common here
Because of poor hygiene and crowdness...

Hanya kerana tikus?? o wow hebatnya..

That is what came across my mind at that moment..

No wow on the complications of the disease..

Now, me as well start asking pak cik google what is leptospirosis actually???

orang melayu panggil penyakit kencing tikus,

ade yang panggil demam selut...

Ape2 pon, disease yang disebabkan oleh jangkitan bakteria

Leptospira tru luka or contaminated fresh water or drinks ...

This bacteria can be found in animals like tikus, lembu, rabbit n so on...

Symptomps nyer unpredictable...

But commonly patient would present with few days fever, muscle ache...

dry cough, chest pain,chills n so on...

N can progress to liver and renal failure..

This is the Mega hazard...

when liver and renal had shut down ..

So all the toxic cannot be removed from our body

and they start to accumulate and lead to toxicity..

But still, i failed to find specific pathophisiologynye...

Perhaps because this disease sesangat sangat jarang kowt...

Akhir kate, elakkan kawasan berair yang tercemar, selut, n so on...

Nape kawin tyme belajar???

Erm..
After jer 3rd year result kuar,
banyak pasangan student kawin...
awal sangat la..
aku pon stil ase bebudak agi...
cam budak skol rendah agi..
lambat agi kowt kawin ni..
Tdi surfin2 blog senior...
most of them cite sal detik result was announced n their gratitude..
aku seriosly TAKOOOTTT~
Tapi malas nak belajar..
arghh... tension dengan kemalasan ini..