assalamualaikum ladies
tup tup sudah hampir 5 minggu aku di orthopedik htaa.
aku suka aku suka.
aku suka sama doktor doktornya
aku suka sama teman temannya.
setiap hari ada saja insan yang buat aku ketawa.
setiap hari ada saja aku kontrol gelak sambil terhinjut hinjut bahu.
mahu gelak bahak bahak gaya aku, ada masa ada ketika.
bukan suka suka bila bila masa saja.
tapi ada ketika aku juga kena marah.
kerana aku insan biasa,
tapi kata mereka, masuk telinga kanan dan keluar telinga kiri.
okay.
apa mahu buat moto mereka moto kami ' keep calm and blame the housemen"
okay.
aku suka dia
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
ortho lagi
Assalamualaikum ladies..
How I remember I love updating about love story one time ago.
Write about everything that I feel inside out.
Haha, now work change everything.
So true when people said, working life is much different with study life.
DAMN TRUE MAN!
Life totally changed. Upside down.
All the feeling that I have one time ago, now I lost it.
All that I worries day night is, how to survive tomorrow. Am I able to proceed with my carrier?
What challenge that Im gonna face when I wake up in the morning on the next day?
What ? How? When?
All these are the new challenges to me.
NEW NEW NEW!
Back to orthopedic.
Alhamdulillah I finally finish my tagging period.
I already start my shift work.
Wow, this is the real life man.
Khairil.
This man really inspire me,
Yesterday he really broke down, knowing he have to extend the orthopedic posting.
God, I really hope it does not affect him much.
Deep inside I feel so relieved since I still have a lot to learn from him.
I believed, whatever happened to us is merely God play.
He know what best for us. HE know. HE know.
Dr Md Adzuar.
He is the first MO that i worked with during my first A&E shift.
Lucky me, he is not as straight as other MO's.
* Siap boleh cubit2 bahu I lagi when I present so horrible ~ flirting much~
hahah.. Alhamdulillah, everything went well so far.
I just hope I can keep survive in this career.
Ya Allah, help me, help us to go through this. Ameen.
How I remember I love updating about love story one time ago.
Write about everything that I feel inside out.
Haha, now work change everything.
So true when people said, working life is much different with study life.
DAMN TRUE MAN!
Life totally changed. Upside down.
All the feeling that I have one time ago, now I lost it.
All that I worries day night is, how to survive tomorrow. Am I able to proceed with my carrier?
What challenge that Im gonna face when I wake up in the morning on the next day?
What ? How? When?
All these are the new challenges to me.
NEW NEW NEW!
Back to orthopedic.
Alhamdulillah I finally finish my tagging period.
I already start my shift work.
Wow, this is the real life man.
Khairil.
This man really inspire me,
Yesterday he really broke down, knowing he have to extend the orthopedic posting.
God, I really hope it does not affect him much.
Deep inside I feel so relieved since I still have a lot to learn from him.
I believed, whatever happened to us is merely God play.
He know what best for us. HE know. HE know.
Dr Md Adzuar.
He is the first MO that i worked with during my first A&E shift.
Lucky me, he is not as straight as other MO's.
* Siap boleh cubit2 bahu I lagi when I present so horrible ~ flirting much~
hahah.. Alhamdulillah, everything went well so far.
I just hope I can keep survive in this career.
Ya Allah, help me, help us to go through this. Ameen.
Monday, October 28, 2013
fear
I remember , i have a lot of fear before.
I hardly overcome all of my fears.
I took time. So lot.
I took longer time than other normal people to adapt.
This is true about me.
So, we have 4 new taggers last two days.
They are all 4th poster and they are doing good.
They work in a team which sometime I feel like Ive been left behind.
Yeah, tell U I took time to make friends.
Haha but I know, surely I can overcome this soon.
Thinking about my previous fear that Ive gone through.
1. Driving
I never thought that I can drive. Seriously.
2. Veinpuncture
So kacang goreng now maaa.. Jarum is my fear.. fear fear fear... now not anymore... hehheeeee
So the current fear that I must overcome now are
1. Presentation... remembering all the cases.
2. Branula.. Still havent get the rythm
3. To be independent. Not to rely on others.
Hohoho..
Life always give us surprise in various way.
The more U are aging, the more Allah give U.
Life and responsibility.
During my Universities time, Ive been tested with love and friendship.
And now, Allah gave me a new challenge to overcome.
Responsibility.
God, this is tough. tougher than Ive ever thought.
Hahha.. whatever pun, I believe I can do this.
I can overcome it. I just need to be patient. patient. patient and patient.
I hardly overcome all of my fears.
I took time. So lot.
I took longer time than other normal people to adapt.
This is true about me.
So, we have 4 new taggers last two days.
They are all 4th poster and they are doing good.
They work in a team which sometime I feel like Ive been left behind.
Yeah, tell U I took time to make friends.
Haha but I know, surely I can overcome this soon.
Thinking about my previous fear that Ive gone through.
1. Driving
I never thought that I can drive. Seriously.
2. Veinpuncture
So kacang goreng now maaa.. Jarum is my fear.. fear fear fear... now not anymore... hehheeeee
So the current fear that I must overcome now are
1. Presentation... remembering all the cases.
2. Branula.. Still havent get the rythm
3. To be independent. Not to rely on others.
Hohoho..
Life always give us surprise in various way.
The more U are aging, the more Allah give U.
Life and responsibility.
During my Universities time, Ive been tested with love and friendship.
And now, Allah gave me a new challenge to overcome.
Responsibility.
God, this is tough. tougher than Ive ever thought.
Hahha.. whatever pun, I believe I can do this.
I can overcome it. I just need to be patient. patient. patient and patient.
Friday, October 25, 2013
Day 4 tagging Orthopedic
Assalamualaikum wbt.
Oh, so free so free.
pagi tadi kena marah sebab present terabur cam ntah hape2.
OMG, y cant I remember all my patients complaint. seriously x ingat.
bile nak cek wound bagai.
ape2 pun at least today is better than yesterday
hari ni memang free memang free.
siap leh lepak2 ngan hadi ngan amirin lepas attend patient kat yellow zone.
OMG, amirin is so dedicated. rajin. pakar branula kot.
Hadi, the senior, he looks so cool and relaks.
N cute sometimes.
Khairil so supportive. tekun. baik. pak cik cina tu panggil die doktor pendek. jahat pak cik tu. td i da tlong ugut pak cik tu, lau die panggil kerel dr pendek lagi, x mau rawat sama dia.
jeremy, mane ntah, xpernah nampak die lagi since i join ortho.
neve n niran, 2 indian girls yg very nice... teringat si tamil aresi. rindu sama dia.
hari ni jugak teman uncle seong wat SU kat 7B.
bnyak gakla blajar sal HD and SU dr staffnurse.
so nice so nice.
siap tertido lagi 10 minit.
My god, malu gile..hahhaa..
tapi akak tu lepak je, faham kot.hehehe
then jumpe la my statescope ngn buku medkal yg I tinggal suatu ketika dahulu.
muahahhahha.
so far, im doing good in ortho.
cume kena kurangkan blur and read some more.
hehhee.. cayop2..
Oh, so free so free.
pagi tadi kena marah sebab present terabur cam ntah hape2.
OMG, y cant I remember all my patients complaint. seriously x ingat.
bile nak cek wound bagai.
ape2 pun at least today is better than yesterday
hari ni memang free memang free.
siap leh lepak2 ngan hadi ngan amirin lepas attend patient kat yellow zone.
OMG, amirin is so dedicated. rajin. pakar branula kot.
Hadi, the senior, he looks so cool and relaks.
N cute sometimes.
Khairil so supportive. tekun. baik. pak cik cina tu panggil die doktor pendek. jahat pak cik tu. td i da tlong ugut pak cik tu, lau die panggil kerel dr pendek lagi, x mau rawat sama dia.
jeremy, mane ntah, xpernah nampak die lagi since i join ortho.
neve n niran, 2 indian girls yg very nice... teringat si tamil aresi. rindu sama dia.
hari ni jugak teman uncle seong wat SU kat 7B.
bnyak gakla blajar sal HD and SU dr staffnurse.
so nice so nice.
siap tertido lagi 10 minit.
My god, malu gile..hahhaa..
tapi akak tu lepak je, faham kot.hehehe
then jumpe la my statescope ngn buku medkal yg I tinggal suatu ketika dahulu.
muahahhahha.
so far, im doing good in ortho.
cume kena kurangkan blur and read some more.
hehhee.. cayop2..
Sunday, October 20, 2013
good bye medical
esok hari ada date ngan dato marlia pasal pertukaran posting.
harap2 semuanya baik2saja.
jadi, tolak lebih ada sepuluh hari kisah suka duka dekat wad mawar 7b di kubikel aku.
pesakit 1.
wajah yang polos.
sakit.
tutur bicara yang ramah dan membelai.
membuat aku menangis di hadapannya.
ditegur aku lagak dia seorang ibu.
cukup untuk membuat aku bertahan di wad itu selama satu minggu.
setiap kali aku stress, aku duduk dan mengadu pada ibu itu.
pesakit 2.
masuk kerana sakit yang biasa2.
Satu hari, tiba satu result, HIV reaktif.
gadis yang baru berumur 18 tahun.
Aku cuba beriak tenang. Ini pesakit pertama dan pengalaman pertama aku berhadapan dengan kes fresh HIV.
Breaking bad news? aku seorang?
Akhirnya, di depan Afi aku menangis.
I talked talked talked to the patient to the parent. wajah dan suasana yang aku tidak akan lupa.
pesakit 3.
89 y.o Indian lady.
susuk tubuh yang sangat kurus.
badan yang lemah.
ditinggalkan pada waktu malam keseorangan tanpa penjaga.
Sedangkan segerembolan anak datang konon dari X , risau akan kondisi si ibu.
tetapi tetap ditinggalkan ibu itu keseorangan.
sayu aku, apabila ibu itu tetap mengatakan dia sudah tidak batuk, sedangkan di depan aku sendiri dia masih batuk2. hanya kerana tidak mahu tinggal di hospital.
duhai si anak.
pesakit 4.
RVD patient.
kurus. kulit berkudis kudis.
angkara si suami.
kali ini, aku lebih tegar.
kerana dia pesakit RVD kedua aku.
aku cucuk berkali kali untuk ambil darah tetapi gagal biarpun uratnya sangat jelas kelihatan angkara susuk tubuhnya kurus melidi.collapsed vein.
Akhirnya berjaya setelah vein pada bahunya yang dicucuk.
tabah wanita itu.
viral load .. HAART..
Ini antara kisah pesakit2 pertama aku yang aku ingat wajah dan kisah mereka. ditulis ringkas, namun kisah mereka lekat kuat dalam hati aku.
Aku mungkin lemah apabila aku give up medical as my first posting, but I did that after think so thoroughly. Aku akan kembali ke medikal selepas aku betul2 bersedia.
Tell you, suasana di wad medikal HTAA, those patient are yours. eventhough u r tagger. all their complaints, management are yours. u decide, you do it. u r not HO's, u r MO's. U r not the first poster, U r the 2nd n above posters. Everyone expect U to know everything already. Trust me, we have to run run and run.
harap2 semuanya baik2saja.
jadi, tolak lebih ada sepuluh hari kisah suka duka dekat wad mawar 7b di kubikel aku.
pesakit 1.
wajah yang polos.
sakit.
tutur bicara yang ramah dan membelai.
membuat aku menangis di hadapannya.
ditegur aku lagak dia seorang ibu.
cukup untuk membuat aku bertahan di wad itu selama satu minggu.
setiap kali aku stress, aku duduk dan mengadu pada ibu itu.
pesakit 2.
masuk kerana sakit yang biasa2.
Satu hari, tiba satu result, HIV reaktif.
gadis yang baru berumur 18 tahun.
Aku cuba beriak tenang. Ini pesakit pertama dan pengalaman pertama aku berhadapan dengan kes fresh HIV.
Breaking bad news? aku seorang?
Akhirnya, di depan Afi aku menangis.
I talked talked talked to the patient to the parent. wajah dan suasana yang aku tidak akan lupa.
pesakit 3.
89 y.o Indian lady.
susuk tubuh yang sangat kurus.
badan yang lemah.
ditinggalkan pada waktu malam keseorangan tanpa penjaga.
Sedangkan segerembolan anak datang konon dari X , risau akan kondisi si ibu.
tetapi tetap ditinggalkan ibu itu keseorangan.
sayu aku, apabila ibu itu tetap mengatakan dia sudah tidak batuk, sedangkan di depan aku sendiri dia masih batuk2. hanya kerana tidak mahu tinggal di hospital.
duhai si anak.
pesakit 4.
RVD patient.
kurus. kulit berkudis kudis.
angkara si suami.
kali ini, aku lebih tegar.
kerana dia pesakit RVD kedua aku.
aku cucuk berkali kali untuk ambil darah tetapi gagal biarpun uratnya sangat jelas kelihatan angkara susuk tubuhnya kurus melidi.collapsed vein.
Akhirnya berjaya setelah vein pada bahunya yang dicucuk.
tabah wanita itu.
viral load .. HAART..
Ini antara kisah pesakit2 pertama aku yang aku ingat wajah dan kisah mereka. ditulis ringkas, namun kisah mereka lekat kuat dalam hati aku.
Aku mungkin lemah apabila aku give up medical as my first posting, but I did that after think so thoroughly. Aku akan kembali ke medikal selepas aku betul2 bersedia.
Tell you, suasana di wad medikal HTAA, those patient are yours. eventhough u r tagger. all their complaints, management are yours. u decide, you do it. u r not HO's, u r MO's. U r not the first poster, U r the 2nd n above posters. Everyone expect U to know everything already. Trust me, we have to run run and run.
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Day 2 taggers
OMG, this is so stressful lifestyle.
Im gonna die . die. die.
stress level is increasing.
If I were U student, hell, I study really hard.
Ill make sure I can manage patient during my student time lagi so that I wont in real shock.
Tell U, I just taking care of 1cubicle only.
with 5-10 patient. With a lot of orders to be accomplish .
With a lot of energy needed to trace all those results.
With staff nurse every now and then, dr, bp patient naik, nak wat ape ni? dr, patient ni ade temperature during blood transfusion.
Nak insert branula, taking blood.
X payah mention PD, chest tube n so ngeng2 and the geng... complete this and that so that Ull pass ur tagging period. OMG die. die. die.
tagging period? two weeks? off tag means start call alone in the night. ? God.!
"New HO, how come u this small thing pun u nak mention kat I." kata MO
"Oh , HUSM, shud be terer. x payah orientasilah"
kekambing kekambing kekambing.
ape2 pun senyum jela..
pastu bebel2 kat afi ngn anwar.
bebel2..
pastu bebel2 kat sini pulak.
oklah bye.
InsyaAllah, we will be a good and best and humble doctor one day.
Time nangis kita nangis. Time kerja kita kerja.
p/s : Apa pun yang kita buat kalau sebab dunia, penat jelah yang kita dapat.
Im gonna die . die. die.
stress level is increasing.
If I were U student, hell, I study really hard.
Ill make sure I can manage patient during my student time lagi so that I wont in real shock.
Tell U, I just taking care of 1cubicle only.
with 5-10 patient. With a lot of orders to be accomplish .
With a lot of energy needed to trace all those results.
With staff nurse every now and then, dr, bp patient naik, nak wat ape ni? dr, patient ni ade temperature during blood transfusion.
Nak insert branula, taking blood.
X payah mention PD, chest tube n so ngeng2 and the geng... complete this and that so that Ull pass ur tagging period. OMG die. die. die.
tagging period? two weeks? off tag means start call alone in the night. ? God.!
"New HO, how come u this small thing pun u nak mention kat I." kata MO
"Oh , HUSM, shud be terer. x payah orientasilah"
kekambing kekambing kekambing.
ape2 pun senyum jela..
pastu bebel2 kat afi ngn anwar.
bebel2..
pastu bebel2 kat sini pulak.
oklah bye.
InsyaAllah, we will be a good and best and humble doctor one day.
Time nangis kita nangis. Time kerja kita kerja.
p/s : Apa pun yang kita buat kalau sebab dunia, penat jelah yang kita dapat.
Monday, October 7, 2013
BFMP
Assalamualaikum wbt ladies,
Actually bukak laptop sebab nak baca notes, tapi kite update dulu ape2 yg patut kat sini.hihi
Hari ni dah tau posting ape.
Pukul 5 tadi, berkejaran cari k. Radin.
So, afi, anwar and I dapat medikal.
Zurina dan hamidah dapat O&G.
Lai dan Wan Yi dapat surgeri.
May dan Yaseer dapat orthopedik.
Bukan dapat sangat lah pun.
kitorang choose and divide among kitorang ikot kuota given.
nampak sikit je slide tu.
padahal bersepah giler.
banyak kali trial tapi kena choose the best three je setiap sorang.
Ingatkan nak ambil gambar time slide banyak bersepah tu, biar nampak sikit gigihnya.
Tapi yelah kan, fon kite gambar dah x cantik.
Gambar ni sume pon, wat muke kesian pinjam ipong afi.
gigih nak ambil gambar. fotografer tegar katanya. haha.
Ada orang bagi gambar semalam.
haha. bukan dia bagi pun. tapi nak upload jugak.
suspicious kan korang? sape tu ? sape tu?
Friday, October 4, 2013
First week as housemen
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum ladies ^^
Stukur Ya Allah, minggu pertama as housemen dapat survive dengan jayanya dan dapat cuti this weekend... yezza.
Day 1
Pergi Jabatan Kesihatan Negeri Pahang dan register kat sana
Pergi Jabatan Sumber Manusia HTAA dan daftar kat situ.
Pergi asrama jururawat HTAA dan daftar bilik dekat situ.
Syukur juga, saya dan May dapat bilik yang ada aircond.
Day 2
Dengar talk tentang Breast ca dan dapat makan sandwich telur..huhu
Dengar taklimat oleh staff nurse zubaidah (K.Zu)
Dengar taklimat lagi pasal wound oleh staff nurse jugak tapi x ingat nama
Amik darah untuk cek HepB
Day 3
Duduk dekat klinik darah bersepadu.
Dari pagi sampai petang ambil darah jugak.
Duduk dekat kaunter tolong K.Zah label bottle.
Time amik darah, hati tak debar pun tapi tangan gigil2.
Kan saya ada masalah tangan gigil.
Tapi Alhamdulillah, semua urat senang jumpe n x de masalah pun amik darah except part ketar tu.
Day 4
Sambung ambil darah lagi.
Each of us kena ambil 30 darah pesakit.
Hari ni semua dah cukup. Siap ada yang lebih lagi.
K.Zah kata excellant lah budak USM ni.. hahha (bangga juga sikit2.. astagfirullahalazim) hihiu
Abang Razi datang lawat. K.Erma pun ada singgah.
Day 5
Ambil darah lagi kat klinik darah bersepadu.
Pergi buat mantoux test kat klinik respiratory.
Sakit juga kena prick ooo..
Mau nangis2.
Hari ni K.Zah bagi balik awal.
Sambil tunggu punch card pukul 5, kami lepak library.
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ok.. tadi uncle ong bagi kami cop... yeay!! semangat2.. comel copnye.. warna pink gitu.. hahha.. jadi kami main cop2 kertas..hihu
Assalamualaikum ladies ^^
Stukur Ya Allah, minggu pertama as housemen dapat survive dengan jayanya dan dapat cuti this weekend... yezza.
Day 1
Pergi Jabatan Kesihatan Negeri Pahang dan register kat sana
Pergi Jabatan Sumber Manusia HTAA dan daftar kat situ.
Pergi asrama jururawat HTAA dan daftar bilik dekat situ.
Syukur juga, saya dan May dapat bilik yang ada aircond.
Day 2
Dengar talk tentang Breast ca dan dapat makan sandwich telur..huhu
Dengar taklimat oleh staff nurse zubaidah (K.Zu)
Dengar taklimat lagi pasal wound oleh staff nurse jugak tapi x ingat nama
Amik darah untuk cek HepB
Day 3
Duduk dekat klinik darah bersepadu.
Dari pagi sampai petang ambil darah jugak.
Duduk dekat kaunter tolong K.Zah label bottle.
Time amik darah, hati tak debar pun tapi tangan gigil2.
Kan saya ada masalah tangan gigil.
Tapi Alhamdulillah, semua urat senang jumpe n x de masalah pun amik darah except part ketar tu.
Day 4
Sambung ambil darah lagi.
Each of us kena ambil 30 darah pesakit.
Hari ni semua dah cukup. Siap ada yang lebih lagi.
K.Zah kata excellant lah budak USM ni.. hahha (bangga juga sikit2.. astagfirullahalazim) hihiu
Abang Razi datang lawat. K.Erma pun ada singgah.
Day 5
Ambil darah lagi kat klinik darah bersepadu.
Pergi buat mantoux test kat klinik respiratory.
Sakit juga kena prick ooo..
Mau nangis2.
Hari ni K.Zah bagi balik awal.
Sambil tunggu punch card pukul 5, kami lepak library.
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Monday, September 30, 2013
nak start kejelah
hahaha...
I baru bangun susun2 folder seme..
Ntah pepe... nak wat semalam cam malas je..
seb bek je, all d documents dah ade. siap nak print out n susun2 je.
Semalam.
Jawapan yang aku cari, aku terima.
Kalau dulu jawapan ni aku terima, mungkin menangis meraung gak la.
Tapi semalam x tau what I should feel.
The feeling is not so intense. N lega pun ade coz akhirnya... terhurai~
I bet my instinct damn kuat.
Seriously. I can feel if something happen or gonna happen.
Lelaki,
dia mungkin x lihat lagi d worst scenario.
Ive been watching dying peoples.
Ive been clerking terminal ill patient.
Ive been seing peoples with hardship/ poor.
So I wish he could be strong and keep fighting.
nak tulis panjang2 lagi.. tapi nak g gosok bajulah.
later~
I baru bangun susun2 folder seme..
Ntah pepe... nak wat semalam cam malas je..
seb bek je, all d documents dah ade. siap nak print out n susun2 je.
Semalam.
Jawapan yang aku cari, aku terima.
Kalau dulu jawapan ni aku terima, mungkin menangis meraung gak la.
Tapi semalam x tau what I should feel.
The feeling is not so intense. N lega pun ade coz akhirnya... terhurai~
I bet my instinct damn kuat.
Seriously. I can feel if something happen or gonna happen.
Lelaki,
dia mungkin x lihat lagi d worst scenario.
Ive been watching dying peoples.
Ive been clerking terminal ill patient.
Ive been seing peoples with hardship/ poor.
So I wish he could be strong and keep fighting.
nak tulis panjang2 lagi.. tapi nak g gosok bajulah.
later~
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
write a bit
Assalamualaikum w.b.t ladies.
I am packing my luggage for convocation as well induction.
I bet all my free time is going to leave me soon.
Very soon.
Pin bUnga.
What the heck is that?
hahha... Little did I expect the flower brooch is booming -bOOOO-
I did for my young2 cousin two days ago.
What did I get in return?
OMG, abundant orders from their friends...
Hey budak2, I have no time to do all those anymore.
I rase x cantik pun - my mom kate " budak2... sukelah bende camtu"
Apelah budak2 ni....
Books
Ive lot to do with my readings..
Now I feel so rugi by spending my time for sleeping.
This is so rugi so rugi.
Relationships
I am happy with so many good news surround me..
News about Farah.. News about Ale..
And I am happy spending my time chitchatting with topies.
Love
I feel like Ive got one more shot to get it right.
I simply cant risk getting into another bad relationship because it's just too darn hard to get out again.
I havent got any more escape acts in me.
Okay, I wont be here for quite some time..
Gonna miss you readers~ cam artis lak~ dadaaaaaa~
I am packing my luggage for convocation as well induction.
I bet all my free time is going to leave me soon.
Very soon.
Pin bUnga.
What the heck is that?
hahha... Little did I expect the flower brooch is booming -bOOOO-
I did for my young2 cousin two days ago.
What did I get in return?
OMG, abundant orders from their friends...
Hey budak2, I have no time to do all those anymore.
I rase x cantik pun - my mom kate " budak2... sukelah bende camtu"
Apelah budak2 ni....
Books
Ive lot to do with my readings..
Now I feel so rugi by spending my time for sleeping.
This is so rugi so rugi.
Relationships
I am happy with so many good news surround me..
News about Farah.. News about Ale..
And I am happy spending my time chitchatting with topies.
Love
I feel like Ive got one more shot to get it right.
I simply cant risk getting into another bad relationship because it's just too darn hard to get out again.
I havent got any more escape acts in me.
Okay, I wont be here for quite some time..
Gonna miss you readers~ cam artis lak~ dadaaaaaa~
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