x nak

Aku x nak malam yang macam ini lagi. Jikalau diberi sepuluh pun aku tak nak. I guess, I should be tougher. Better than yesterday. Untuk dapat satu rasa kuat, bukan senang. Bukan macam sesenang kata kata yang aku alunkan. Tidak semudah itu. Untuk setiap apa yang aku rasakan, itu hanya untuk aku. Anugerah tuhan untuk aku. Sukar untuk aku kongsikan. Ingin diluah buat yang sejuta kali, ditelan kembali sekaliannya. Itulah aku. Untuk rasa ini yang pernah aku pinta, syukur aku berikan. Tiada sesal sekelumitpun. Satu aku pinta, sejuta yang Dia beri. Complete package. Aku hanya yakin pada Dia.

Aku x nak malam yang macam ini lagi. Malam yang aku jadi manusia yang tabirnya longlai. Malam yang aku biarkan rasa itu menjadi satu yang utama. Malam yang menyaksikan basahnya tubir mata. Sumpah aku tak nak lagi. Aku ingin cagarkan malam ini. Aku mohon satu malam yang tenang. Tiada rasa itu. Tak perlu aku tahankan dan tak perlu ditepiskan. Aku mohonkan.

Aku x nak malam yang macam ini lagi. Keras menjadi rapuh. Basah yang tiada kering. Tidur yang hilang lena. Ini malam yang punya sumpahan. Aku yakin ramai sudah yang telah mengalami malam yang semacam ini.

Tapi demi tuhan yang menjadikan aku dari tiada kepada ada, yang memberikan satu malam seperti malam ini, dan banyak malam yang bukan seperti ini, tiada layak untuk aku rungutkan. Kerana malam yang macam ini, yang tidak aku mahukan, malam semacam inilah punya juta sakti dan hikmat yang mungkin masih belum aku temukan. Akan aku temukan satu ketika nanti.

p/s: Tulisan yang aku karangkan lewat malam semalam namun terbiar lesu di dalam draftku.

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OT day

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Huhu.. New experience comes in. Today my group which was assigned under Dr. Ramli was given chance to observe an operation. It was an adenomyosis and bilateral endometriomas case. Tell U, it was a damn great thing after an hour experience of being an idiot in the O&G ward. Walking around, trying to follow the medical team doing the ward round but was treated like an invisible monster instead.. ha.ha.ha. okay! We are needed only when they need a chaperone only. :)

Then, we were saved! Dr. Shah Reza comes in and ask Dr. Ramli to supervise her doctor to be daughter, Shasha ( included us la kan) . huhu. Shes a medical student in Polland and doing attachment also. Barulah terasa kehadiran kami ini disedari. haha :D . By the way, Dr Amir said, Dr Ramli adalah dr paling juruh sekali :p . and it was true though. It was hard to find the juruh2 type in the department as the best mama n papa are in the  O&G ward. Best means paling garang and menakutkan. hee~ ampun!

Back to the case!

ADENOMYOSIS AND BILATERAL ENDOMETRIOMAS

The 40 years old lady come with the chief complaint of menorrhagia and dysmenorrhea. I dont know what takes her so long to see the doctor. The tumour was big already.  Adenomyosis is characterized by presence of ectopic glandular tissue found in the uterine muscle (myometrium). The most common uterine tumour  is uterine fibroid (benign) and it was 1 in the 5 ladies. Adenomyosis (also benign) ni sepupu die je, kata Dr Ramli. haha

Endometriomas is a type of ovarian cyst. It is also called as chocolate cyst or endometrial cyst.

See the enlarged ovaries? huhu.. These pictures were credited to mr google. Actually we dont see the endometriomas of the patient as we were out of the operation theater before the operation finish. Hee~ It takes so long as the case turns out to be a more complicated one. The uterus has adhere to small bowel, rectum and sigmoid colon. It takes a few specialists to handle that. Hhuhu.. By the way, much thanks to all  the drs and nurses. ( ^^)

p/s : "They" are so selfish. Living life for the sake of their own happiness. Doesnt know how to tolerate. They are the tumours. :( aku sumpah kau jadi langsir! erk! haha

:(

oh.. what a hectic day today is. It is my first day of ward  attachment at HUSM. I woke up so early in the morning and headed up to HUSM at 6.30 am. After settle down our grouping and hostel which was sooo leceh, we have to cover cases for tomorrow's morning ward round. Okay! It was my first time and I was so blur. My body was aching here and there. I am damn sleepy now but my eyes cannot keep closed. As usual, I am not done with my reading. Cases for tomorrow are breech presentation, post date, gestational diabetes and premature contraction. So simple yet I am so lazy to do my revision. And I am in this type :((((( of mood.
What I need now is simply my "sleeping pills"... oh dear :((((((

cactus

aku pohon berduri.
tumbuh cantik dan sendiri.
aku tidak perlu dunia segala.
aku hanya perlu titis air dan dibiar di bawah matahari.

(^________^)" silence

Lots of looooove

Hye friends,

tell U, my mood tonite was like :( :( :( :(((((((((..
I poke few of my buddies in ym, but all goes unreplied except from miss Naddo. Connection problem agaaaiiinnnn.. :( ..... Sooner, I realise today is 15 rejab, then my mood instantly goes like this :))))))))))))).. (No wonderla beb..huhu)

Y meh??? Back to my superstitious beliefs, 15 rejab is the time of full moon ryte? then Im going to have a very moody day. Everything I do will goes wrong. I will eat like there is no tomorrow. I dont have the reason y but from what I heard is, the gravity from the moon will disturb the wave of our cerebrospinal fluid, then the hormonal imbalance will occur. Just like how the moon affect the sea wave. hahah . (Surprisingly, I was the only one affected, not my other friends or family members.. thaa..)

okay! jadi bulan la puncanya.. So those friend yang have the same mood like me, now cheer up. Dont be affected by the moon okay? huahahha.. Lets laugh like the moment we were enjoying the Maharaja lawak show... So pure~ Hilang segala ayu bagai... =D

p/s : Toksah caye sangat la kepercayaan karut I tuh. Itu semua displacement. Menyalahkan sesuatu yang lain untuk menggembirakan diri. Or maybe it works up for certain people only :p .. haha.. If anyone come with any research regarding that, feel free to share it with me. thanx dude.

Cute

Hari ini bettei pulang dari sekolah dan menunjukkan lukisan beliau kepada kakak kakaknya. Berikut merupakan perbualan kami

k.ining : oh comeinyoooo... yah lukih ko ni?
bettei  : aah, lukih mase time koko
k.ining: sapo hok dok mandi tu?
k.ain :  K.ining la key?
k.ining : oh. k.ining hok dok baring2 tu key.. hok pakai tudung love tuh..
k.ain : sebeloh k.ining tu sapo?
bettei : Jep sepah ( sambil wat muke x ley blaaahh)

kami tergelak kekekhkeh... (isk kuat betil pengaruh ML terhadap dirinya)

k.ining : bakpo lukih k.ining nga jep sepah terbalik.
bettei : holaa... mestilah nok tengok anok2 dio mandi. key lemas key... (dengan nada marah)
k.ining : dohla lukis tido. wat la duduk koo... adoi
bettei : x panda lukih dudok la. T k.ining tolong yah deh.

moralnya, kalau kita senang terpengaruh dengan sesuatu bende, kanak kanak beribu kali ganda senang terpengaruh. Watch out what U see, talk and behave. Kalau saya mengulang tonton ML 2 kali, bettei tonton berkali kali sampailah tibanya masa untuk tidur. hoho..Persoalannya kenpa Jep Sepah? jawapannya kerana die suke part " minah, kaki aku minaaahhhh" haha... chill!

Farewell Black Canyon

Jheah! I told U already that my younger brother, almomaks is going to register at UTM to further his studies. Thus, here are some moments captured at the Black Canyon ecm, the place where he did his part time job during the waiting break. ( So, dapatlah discount...hip2 hurreyyy!!!)

Si gadis yang menjadi rakan duet saya. Setiap kali I sebut je "pergh", beliau akan menyambung, "bau telooor"

Nampak x segugus lada hitam. first time saya jumpa bentuk asalnya. Kata Iwe, ia diimport dari Thailand.

Gigih saya ingin mengambil gambar. Ayah saya baru je ingin menyambar ke mulut namun ditahan oleh saya, "jap! nak ambil gambar"

perghhhh!!!! bajet beh ah ni...

Mengajar si bettei makan chicken chop menggunakan fork n knife. Nasib xrabak aje mulutnye

Sedih nak upload gambar sendiri. Menyedihkan hati saja. Pimples all around my face.I took clinic punye ubat. but notice that lately, setiap kali saya makan ubat, I was having stomach upset and nausea. Itu sebab saya tidak suka makan ubat sejak dari kecil. Mahu muntah ni.. uuweeeekk.... pleeasseee`

peeeeeehhhhhhh!!!!

peeeehhhhh.... miss my usm life a loottttt~ 3 months already I spent my days away from USM... Now really miss the bulan purnama hang out with dear friends... 7e nite walk, evening burning calories session, birthday celeb, and a lot more. I wonder kenapalah girls ni suke lepak2 sama friends sambil buat luahan hati session... N I miss that session 2.. :::)))))))... Oh bulan purnama, come n get me now~

Now tengah chat dengan aina. (pon nak tulis kat sini...hahah)  love chat. Asal chat ngn girls je, chat soal hati dan perasaan, emosi ngan kawan2 laaa.. Wonderla, kalo guy chat ngan guy, dey all chat about what eh??? kalo sal hati n persaan jugak, memang peeerrrrhhh laaaa... kuahahah

p/s : terserlah x kebosanan sy dengan wat entry camni?