Last breath by Ahmed Bukhatir

From those around I hear a Cry,
A muffled sob, a Hopeless sigh,
I hear their footsteps leaving slow,
And then I know my soul must Fly!
A chilly wind begins to blow,
Within my soul, from Head to Toe,
And then, Last Breath escapes my lips,
It's Time to leave. And I must Go!

So, it is True (But it's too Late)
They said: Each soul has its Given Date,
When it must leave its body's core,
And meet with its Eternal Fate.
Oh mark the words that I do say,

Who knows? Tomorrow could be your Day,
At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
Decide which now, Do NOT delay!
Come on my brothers let us pray
Decide which now, Do NOT delay!

Oh God! Oh God! I cannot see!
My eyes are Blind! Am I still Me
Or has my soul been led astray,
And forced to pay a Priceless Fee

Alas to Dust we all return,
Some shall rejoice, while others burn,
If only I knew that before
The line grew short, and came my Turn!
And now, as beneath the sod
They lay me (with my record flawed),
They cry, not knowing I cry worse,
For, they go home, I face my God!

Oh mark the words that I do say,
Who knows, Tomorrow could be your Day,
At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
Decide which now, Do NOT delay !
Come on my brothers let's pray
Decide which now, do not delay ....

The shadow

Five requests to the shadow.

1. Do hide my feeling well.
2. Be with me all the times in the darkness.
3. Accompany me watching the sunset and sunrise
4. Protect of me from the burning sunlight
5. Accompany me counting the night stars till I realise the cloud has brought you away.

Note: To be truth, I dont have to make any request. You, the shadow has done everything that I wish you to do. And thanks for being my shadow, my dear friends.

The story

1. People make mistakes. Once, twice, thrice and keep repeating over and over. At once, you will realise how much you have learn from your mistakes. That is life. A whole journey life learning process. But if you never learn from the mistakes, you are going to trap in the cycle of mistakes. You will never get escaped and this is the point when you turn your life into useless rubbish.

2. The story of you and me never be a mistake. It may be end up with happiness or painful knot. Whatever it is, it never and should not be a mistake. Why? Because we both learn and gain something from the story. It contains memories, lessons, as well as training to face the more painful event in life. The story is just the part of our life learning process.

3. World is in sphere shape. Some might say it is a circle. Others might say the world is borderless. People have various perception on certain issue. It depends on how they interprate the stimulus perceived and how they relate with their surrounding. I interprate the story as the way I like. I might tell you, the story is very painful, and what you perceived from me is that, "it is a painful story". But pain to me, is not solely the hurtful pain, it is just a pain that I want more and more. A pain that I want to endure. A pain the I seek for myself. A pain which I need no painkillers.

Note : This is not related to the above post. I enjoy listening to "The Story", Zee Avi. It was superb!. 2009 album, but I just being introduced to the song recently. Hehe.. oh zaman da berubahla deeerrr!

Mereka suci

KEM BINA INSANIAH DI SM KEMAHANG ANJURAN MSFT

Tarikh    : 21&22 JANUARI 2011
Tempat  : SM Kemahang, Tanah Merah

Mereka nakal. Mereka suka kenakan fasi. Mereka suka buat muke bile fasi marah. Dan mereka telah menyebabkan seorang fasi perempuan menangis. Itulah mereka, adik2 F.5 SM Kemahang. Tapi percaya atau tidak, mereka menangis di saat perpisahan kami termasuklah student2 lelaki yang sememangnya tok joro dalam kenakalan. Mereka peluk dan cium tangan fasi2. Mereka dedikasikan lagu buat kami.Mereka tolong angkatkan barang2 kami ke bas. Mereka lambai tangan kepada kami sehingga bas kami hilang di pandangan. Mereka kata " I love U". Dan mereka kata kamilah fasi terbaik. Mereka memang nakal, tetapi mereka suci.

note : Intending to upload some pictures and videos but I have to format my lappy first so that I can edit all those pics n vids.  My lappy gerak cam kure2 now. Ley use ntok pakai tenet je.

KAMBHENG sama BULAN!

HAI KAWAN2...CAK AAA!!

SENYUMAN KAMBHENG

oh konpius2... xtau nak choose gambar kambheng yang ne... sume wat muke cute2... amik due2 jela.. kohkohkoh... malam ni bulan mengambang yang shengal..nanti kan ade serigala jadian, so jgn la gi main malam2 tau... wooooooo... oh bile mud boshan melanda, kambhengla yang jadi mangsa... oh... bulan dan kambing, kalian memang cocok.. nak tau pe yang kambeng sangat hari ni..

- report da siap da... tunggu nak antar sok je...yezza... markah mesti lebih 60 ok dr?? nak antar tok amik S3ni..

- bahan tok 30 minutes talk x cari lagi... nak cakap sal ape ek... merepek kokse2 pon okla... adik2 sure punye eager nak dengar kan.. akak2 n abang2 usm lah katekan... wekkkzzz..haha.. last projek b4 exam.. all da besh lah grup kami.

-surat mintak heller( ntah cane eje ntah.. ).. sengal je pakcik tu, x yah la nak mintak surat2, leceh je..bagi je kan senang... oh prosedur duniawi sume ni..btw, saya salute same en.ayie.. kalo sy ley bg award best worker, sure sy da bg kat die... dy d bestla... yang lain ala2 moderate jela.. muke kalo x muncung, muncing je.. wadooo laaa.. penat kot keje kat usm nih...

-kawe2 gi make kat cim cum tadik... bestnye la.. mau itot, tapi meeting msft yang kambeng lak.. adesh.. plus nak wat report.. so skunk lapar la..

-dr ida zarina sgt kewl.. smlm sy dtg lambat 90 minit lambat ke pbl, oh dy masih tersenyum sambil geleng2 pale... ayookkk.. maaflah dr.. bulan ngambang kan..hihi...

-oh terperasan wawa bahasekan diri dy abang... aiii,, gelinye ase... huk...

- kawan sy kat mesir kate dy ase dy da gile wat medik..simptom2 pelik da muncul... adush, penangan apekah?

- saye da blajar makan banyak sayur... kubis putih lam tom yam, cendawan, salad lam nc ayam.. hoho.. patut ah kulit kaso jek.. x cukop vitamin nih..sib bek kawan ngn farah yg vege... da terpengaruh ngn gaye idop sihat dy... lemon duhai lemon.

- tadi gi dengar talk by muallaf sempena feski ni, but x sampai sejam pon, i da lik da.. adus... ni kekambengan dewa ni... 

- tenet n lappy sy slow tahap mak kambeng ... tolonglah gi format... ahh..

notis: syoklah bebel2 ni.. x tau nak bebel kat sape.. farah exam sok.. td da bebel same2 ngan nana..hmm... btw kan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK... huuu... sy anak yg ke4 wish... yg last syirah..hahah.. at lis bukan yg las kan... muahahah... sib bek kakak sy remind.. I hate no ok... so susah nak ingat tarikh2 ni...huk2... drugs okle... hee~

Kawan

Nisa n Miza in the frame

Hidup aku terukir nama nama kamu.

Dipahat indah dalam ruang hatiku.

Dirobek selak, takkan hilang selamanya

kerana kita kan kawan...

Tangis aku, tangis kamu.

Suka aku, suka kamu.

Gile aku, gile kamu.

kerana kita kan kawan...

Hari ini, dunia berbicara padamu.

Getir di pendengaranmu.

Getir jua di pendengaran aku.

Maaf kerana aku tiada disisimu.

Kata aku pada kamu,

Hold my hand and be strong

kerana kita kan kawan

nota sisi: Ape yang kamu rase, itu yang aku rase. U try hard to make other side happy, U flush rage direct to his face, semoga die akan bahagia walau bukan dengan kamu. Little than what u expect , u tarnish die punye heart with ur wrong judgement.. hmm...  emotion can kill life babe.. Be rational n strong okay..

I am me once more - Zee Avi

p/s: Know what, Now I jatuh cinta sama lagu2 Zee Avi. Sangat ala2 kekoboian... My father is d one who introduce me 2 her songs.. hoho... kemana tumpahnye kuah kalo x ke nasi kan.. Tunggu pe lagi, layan la beb! piece! heheh

JUST YOU AND ME LYRICS - ZEE AVI

JUST YOU AND ME LYRICS - ZEE AVI:

You were sitting at the coffee table
where you're reading Kierkegaard
Minutes later, you proceeded to say
something that almost broke my heart

You said, 'Darling, I am tired of livin' my routined life.
There's so much in the world that i'd like
to soak up with my eyes.'
Well, baby i never did stop you from going out to explore
We can do it all together from the colds of the poles
to the tropics of Borneo

Ba da da ba da...

Let's pack our bags
and lie on the easy stream
feel the water on our backs
where we can carry on dreamin'
where we can finally
be where we'd like to be
Darlin', just you and me

Just you and me...

So Darlin', what do you say?
Does that sound like a plan to you?
We can build our own little world
where no one can come through
We can live in huts made out of grass
we can greet father time as he walks pass
we can press feet into the dirt
a little mud, no, it wouldn't hurt

Ba da da ba da ba...

Let's pack our bags
and lie on the easy stream
feel the water on our backs
where we can carry on dreamin'
where we can finally
be where we'd like to be
Darlin', just you and me

Just you and me.."

15th January 2011~ she's 9

1. Story no.1

Was it hard to say  a single thank you?
Haha... Sorry daddy. U shud know ur lil daughter well.
It can be hard for me to say it OUT and LOUD in front of U.
I can write it CLEAR in my blog and I can whisper it SLOW at your back.
Whatever it is, I have mail it straight to your heart.
U just have to feel it. heee. Zillions of thanks...hup2..

2. Story no.2

My bettei fall sick on her birthday.
Her body was so weak. She cannot tolerate flu well.
I first thought that it was just her excuse to play tantruant to her friday schooling session... Yeah it was a common excuse when her sisters and brothers were at home.
Haha.. But after getting Secret Recipe on the 15th, IMPULSIVELY, her flu was gone.
Hmmm.. She was 9th.. next year gonna be 10th.. cepatnye awok besar!

3. Story no.3

We do some baking.. haha
We cook Asyura, cookies as well as muffins.
I took a lot of photos to show how  my sis's muffin outcome.
Lucky U, I dengan shengalnye da terdelete all those pics.. GOAT!

P/s : Short stories can tell lie. They are junkies. But I never insert one in mine. Dont understand what do I mean? Never mind.. : D .ahha

hari abis ganti puase punye rengek.. hohoho!

Tonight, I will be going back to Kuantan to celebrate my shi n mother's birthday on the 15th Jan. hoho..plus to have some therapy. This past 3 weeks O&G blog already gave my head some troubles. It was hard for me to cope with all the learning. I have some degree of slowness la. Hmm, perhaps because I have lost my desire and I dont see what I was searching for in this medical field. My path was a bit blurry.Oh! I should work harder.

Okay, why do I want to become a doctor initially. In the first place, I really want to appreciate life given by Allah to the highest extend. I want to see peoples at their end of life. How they, their family, peoples cope with the death, so that, I will be ready for my turn next. Hmm, but now, being a 3rd medical student is far away from what I expected before. My routine was study3.. memorising facts.. face the super fierce lecturers, specialists,nurses and patients which I found no interesting at all. Oh, memang x bersyukur ini Ainin.. Hmm, now I remember back what had been saying to me by a medical officer at HTAA, Kuantan during my JPA short couse for medical students to be 3 years back. Some sort like this la " Oh dear, If I were U, I would never choose to be a doctor. It was hell tiring, stressing, with not much income so on so forth ..". But at the time, dalam hati sy, " eleh..jadi jugak dr.. ikut suke la sy nak pilih ape pon"... Berkobar kobar lagi kan semangatnya time tu..haha...

By the way, I was not regret on what I have choosen. I just feel a bit tense along the process. How I wish to end the studies, housemenship and be a great and experienced specialist as soon as possible, which meants, I dont have to pass through this undefinite feeling.  Feel like stupid, brainless, medical students.. Oh btw, sy juge x mahu masa bergerak terlalu pantas, nanti saya cepat tue... huphup..

These are some of the common pharases uttered by our lecturers.

1. Your eyes doesnt see what your mind doesnt know.
2. What U need are practice...practice...practice and repetition.
3. For medical students, U have to know something about EVERYTHING, and for the specialist U have to know everything about something.(but rasenye , medical students ni kena tahu EVERYTHING about EVERYTHING, for the sake of exam da ni...huu)

Oh yabedabedu.. I stil believe, in every field pon have their own challenges. x de ape yang datang bergolek kan. Keculai objek2 bulat.. Muhahah.. Perut udah kenyang ni. N now I want continue packing my clothes. Wish I have a safe journey eh... kukakaka.. Salah silap harap dimaafi... Jumpe di saneeeeee!!! : D