hari abis ganti puase punye rengek.. hohoho!

Tonight, I will be going back to Kuantan to celebrate my shi n mother's birthday on the 15th Jan. hoho..plus to have some therapy. This past 3 weeks O&G blog already gave my head some troubles. It was hard for me to cope with all the learning. I have some degree of slowness la. Hmm, perhaps because I have lost my desire and I dont see what I was searching for in this medical field. My path was a bit blurry.Oh! I should work harder.

Okay, why do I want to become a doctor initially. In the first place, I really want to appreciate life given by Allah to the highest extend. I want to see peoples at their end of life. How they, their family, peoples cope with the death, so that, I will be ready for my turn next. Hmm, but now, being a 3rd medical student is far away from what I expected before. My routine was study3.. memorising facts.. face the super fierce lecturers, specialists,nurses and patients which I found no interesting at all. Oh, memang x bersyukur ini Ainin.. Hmm, now I remember back what had been saying to me by a medical officer at HTAA, Kuantan during my JPA short couse for medical students to be 3 years back. Some sort like this la " Oh dear, If I were U, I would never choose to be a doctor. It was hell tiring, stressing, with not much income so on so forth ..". But at the time, dalam hati sy, " eleh..jadi jugak dr.. ikut suke la sy nak pilih ape pon"... Berkobar kobar lagi kan semangatnya time tu..haha...

By the way, I was not regret on what I have choosen. I just feel a bit tense along the process. How I wish to end the studies, housemenship and be a great and experienced specialist as soon as possible, which meants, I dont have to pass through this undefinite feeling.  Feel like stupid, brainless, medical students.. Oh btw, sy juge x mahu masa bergerak terlalu pantas, nanti saya cepat tue... huphup..

These are some of the common pharases uttered by our lecturers.

1. Your eyes doesnt see what your mind doesnt know.
2. What U need are practice...practice...practice and repetition.
3. For medical students, U have to know something about EVERYTHING, and for the specialist U have to know everything about something.(but rasenye , medical students ni kena tahu EVERYTHING about EVERYTHING, for the sake of exam da ni...huu)

Oh yabedabedu.. I stil believe, in every field pon have their own challenges. x de ape yang datang bergolek kan. Keculai objek2 bulat.. Muhahah.. Perut udah kenyang ni. N now I want continue packing my clothes. Wish I have a safe journey eh... kukakaka.. Salah silap harap dimaafi... Jumpe di saneeeeee!!! : D