SUKADUKA

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Hurm... dont know what should i write about..
Matter is, i dont feel it right..
I hate when people bad mouth about others..
But i did it tonight..
I hate myself on what have i done..
Astagfirrullahalazimm!!!

Im so sorry..
I think i have changed.
I love talking about others.. (like jage tepi kain org)
Thing that i really hate to do before..
Oh im so sorry!!
But your story is just so interesting..
I hardly control myself to not talking about it.
But still i have no right to talk about it.
Mengumpat@ hibah..
Things that loved by satan..
N hated by Allah..
Nanti kna makan daging peoples yg kita talk about tu..
Oh!! aku takut..

Conclusion is, I have a bad heart..
Its damn hard to have a nice one.
Its damn hard for me to cuci it..
No jokes!! it is hard... harder than i thought.
The more i wish to change to a better muslimah,
D more sins i commited...
Oh!! Aku mohonn.... AininTasneem... Work harder..
And i believe, one day i will grab it..
things dat so called "halawatul iman"= kemanisan iman..
So nice to own it...

Percayalah... dunia ini hanya sementara..
Aku meniti duri2 kehidupan dalam laluan ke akhirat sana.
Aku punya peta..
Namun ros2 berduri itu seakan akan merantai kaki..
BEBASKAN AKU...~

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Sayang semuanya

Mode: love

Special dedicated: to my beloved abah.
I love U so much la.

Sometimes, drowning in the sea of busyness with no horizon line,
I wonder where I put my heart is.
I lost something.
I feel missing.
I feel alone.

No matter how rare I call you,
how rare I express my love to you,
how rare you feel my gesture,
you already been placed in my heart.
I feel like operating my heart and show you,
how much my love is for you.

You always be there for me.
For the time i need you,
For the time saying that i need nobody,
you still be there, be beside me and send your gesture deep into my heart.
Yeah!! you owned a special part in my heart.

I dont know
N I dont have any reason,
I miss you so much tonight..
Dad, please be ok!
Take care of yourself.
Oh my dear Allah,
Protect my dad wherever he is.
I love him so much.
Grant him everything he wished.

You might not be the best father to the world.
But you are the best father to me.

Dad,
I wish... I hope.. n I pray..
Be happy always..

I want to be the best daughter i can.
I want to make you proud of me.
I want to make you cheer
I love u dad.
Abdul Rafa Bin Hamzah......~ loving you till death

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Tired

oh back 2 my habit...
feelin very tired owes make me feel like wanna stay up d whole nite.
Stay up n spend my time with no study gear.
There are nothing much in my life recently dat make me eager to share with.
hihihoho... boring~

2nd residency( masuk kg) ..
very tired la n have again put a spell on me.
INSOMNIA...

tolonglah!!! medical student pon kna wat keje banci2 nih..
hurmmmm... mental preparation..

case 1
again, a pak cik take out all of his medication n ask me..
ubat ape ni.. ni ubat ape..
Luckily, got revised atovarstatin earlier,
" ubat nk kurangkan kolesterol la pakcik..."
huhu.. sengih..
chlorphenamine... siyes tahu!!!
i was administered with dis drug when i have hand allergic in my first residency before...
allergic?... tapi pelik..
Y dat pak cik nid 2 t8 dat drugs... antihistamine kowt... inflammation, allergies n so on..
lantas konfius d c2.. "pak cik tanyelah dc tyme medical checkup t ye" malu~ but sengih jugak

case2
Asking permission 2 interview d house,
he agreed n terus masuk rumah without inviting us into d house.
after a few minutes,tunggu2, Intai2, dye duk ready kat kerusi dalam rumah, waiting 4 us..
(cantik tercongok sambil pegang baby)
(Okay!!! he was mentally retarded)
Warned earlier by d mak cik, dat d son dat i was interviewing has mental retardation.
But look normal in my eyes, jus a bit slow in decision making.
I insist on going on with dat respondant..
" adik ko? ko anok?"? I start d interview by asking anak sape dy pegang tu.
Okay!!! dye kate anak... (impress..da kawin upenye)
He was damn cool and answered my questions well..
............................

Sampailah ketika,
his mother dat was being interviewed by my other teammate during dat time,
said baby tu anak "sedare" dy rupenye..
okay!! i just realised,
answers dat he gave me just t8 my last word..
ex 1 : " kegemukan buleh sebabkan nyakit jantung, en setuju ke tidak setuju?
dy jawab tidak setuju
ex 2 : "kegemukan buleh sebabkan kencing manis, en tidak setuju ko en setuju...ataupun en x pasti?
dy jawab setu... x pasti..
ex 3: comeinyo baby ni.. adik ko? ko anok?
dy jawab anak ( dy x tambah pun word "sedare"= anak sedare)
then, i answered all d baki2 soalan myself (no use la ty dy)..
N d respondant totally rejected.. ( excluded criterion )
walaweeiii... lurusnye budak name ainin tasneem ni..

huu~ very long journey in achieving my goal..

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Dalam hati ada taman

Sang ratu membilang cinta,
Satu dihati, satu di mata,
Dua di jiwa.

Mereka bertanya,
Dimanakah cintamu yang satu, wahai Sang ratu?
Lantas, tangan bersilang, nadi berderu, lidah bertutur,
Cintaku yang satu tinggi di Arash,
Tercapai dek hati,
Digenggam jauh sekali.

Lidah mereka bertanya lagi,
Indahkah rasa itu wahai Sang ratu?
Lantas jawabnya,
Indah itu milik yang merasa,
Mata yang melihat,
Telinga yang mendengar,
Hati yang memahami,
Justeru, cinta itu milikMu.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

gaza menangis

If you havent read this book yet, find it and flip over it.

"Sekumpulan dari kalangan umatku akan mempertahankan kebenaran,
mereka mengalahkan musuh2 mereka, dan orang2 yang menentang mereka
tidak dapat mengalahkan mereka dan hanya mendapat sedikit kerosakan ,
sehinggalah datangnya kiamat mereka tetap dalam keadaan demikian",
lantas para sahabat bertanya nabi, "Dimanakah mereka wahai Rasulullah?"
Rasulullah menjawab, di Baitul Maqdis dan sekeliling"
(Riwayat Abdullah bin Ahmad dan Thabran)

Ok!! dimana sejarahnya bermula??

Keturunan nabi ibrahim AS terbahagi kepada dua kelompok manusia yang besar

Zuriat daripada anaknya Ismail membentuk bangsa Arab.
Zuriat daripada anaknya Ishaq melahirkan bangsa yahudi ( nama lain ishaq israi'l)

Sejarah pengutusan para rasul adalah kebanyakkan bangsa yahudi, justeru mereka berbangga dengan sejarah ini dan menggelarkan diri mereka sebagai bangsa Allah yang terpilih.
Mereka menambah catatan dalam Taurat dan Talmut dengan menyifatkan bangsa lain lebih hina dari anjing.

Sedangkan mereka lupa sebab utusan rasul yang ramai di kalangan mereka adalah kerana keangkuhan mereka serta keengganan mereka beriman kepada Allah... (Kisah nabi musa, nabi Zakaria, Nabi Isa.....yang ditentang oleh kaum mereka sendiri)..

Keangkuhan inilah yang telah menghilangkan Palestin dari peta dunia kini...

Sahabat, renungilah rakyat Pelestin...
syahidlah idaman mereka..
Kerehatan di akhirat kelak yang dituju..
Janji Allah lah yang dituntut,
sedangkan aku..kau..dan..mereka resah dalam penyakit wahan..
penyakit cintakan dunia,..
yang menjauhkan kita dari akhirat..
Astagfirullahalazimm..
Semoga taufiq dan hidayah itu milik kita semua... amiinnn...

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Berlari ke Bukit Tinggi

Okay!!!! Its time to break..
Take a sip of tea and have ur backpack done..
We are heading to Berjaya Hills@ Bukit Tinggi

Fees: ( Japanese Village and Colmar Tropicale)
Adult RM 12
Child RM 8

Additional
Rabbit park RM 3
Horse riding
and......