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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

mpi suda mareeeeyyyy~

Guess what???
we are working hard on pentomin nasyid...
extra credit n bonus given 2 nadiah n oye...
S d directornye...
Credit also given 2 all my frens yg sudi menjoinkan diri..
even had been warned earlier,
dat, a lot af times are going to be sacrificed...
In this week je pooonn.
hahahh.. tq2...
Im not hoping to be d champion,
but i am hoping that this such activity will bring us luck n hikmah.
akan menyatukan kami2..
I am not even expecting that bella n k.tifah will join us.
It such an honor for me. o wow...

netball pown...
karnival sukan psp n nurani match are waiting for us...
Tak tahu kenapa semanagat sangat nak join...
B4 ni x pernah pown nak build team o wat soeva...
But then r2, acap request 1 team from our batch...
per g, kerahan tenaga... yataaa
at last, ramai jer pon nak join...
huhu, yesterday, main suke2 with y.4 team...
so great... o wow..
huhu... Semoga memory kami2 akan terus terpahat...
4 dis, extra credit given 2 farah...
ooo yeahh... kami akan terus memanfaatkan keremajaan...

Sunday, December 27, 2009

penat tapi x mau tido...~


Huhu... i took dat bas last night,
on my journey back to usm... tah peper..
bus like rapid kl g2.. ganti bas rosak kowt..
ah, at lis camat campai..
right now,
my eyes is very tired like nak mati da... but still degil nak close...
oh mater, tidolah...
buku da bukak..
x nak bace la plak... soooo kambing...
di manakah azam baruku menyorok di kala malam ini...
Huhu, ive deactivate my muka buku..
so bored...like loosing arah tuju g2...
so have 2 waste my time blogging...
malam ni like kiciwa sikit...
ah... 2moro der pbl... sgt malas...
Td g d classic ngn nad2...
enjoying my bukak puasa meal..
chickenchop 2 beb...
hahahha,,, budget western cenggiteeewww...
lame gak lepak2 n borak2..
yeaa... kami minah chat...
oh tidooolah kamuuuu...
tito

Saturday, December 26, 2009

black heron... u gedik la...

Bismilahirrahmanirrahim...
Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang;;;
Ermm... so jarang i start my entries with basmalah..
Today i feel like nak wat. hee~
2night, 11 pm ill t8 my bus n headed 2 usm..
wahuk2... so sedey..
cuti da abes...
azam baru ku... kill d mukabuku...
perosak kehidupan... adus..

Erm right now in process of habiskan buku
"aku terima nikahnya"
org len da berkurun baca..
aku baru nak start baca...
at lis bace k..
ermmm... really nice book.. lots better than pemilik cintaku...
banyak gak hati tersentap dengan jawapan kepada persoalan kehidupan..
Especially dlm bab hidup beragama nih...

"Jangan kita wujudkan fitnah kepada islam itu sendiri"
Huh, terus terang aku katakan..
aku keliru, aku dekati mereka yang dekat pada islam.
Tapi atas kelemahan aku, aku kembali pada hidup aku yg suam2 kuku..
nak jadi insan yg sederhana la konon.

Sungguh aku keliru..
Islam itu rasional...
dan ada cara yang lebih hikmah untuk menentang sesuatu kemungkaran.
Aku menyokong boikot atas hiburan yang melampau-lampau.
Aku juga menyokong ats segala kritikan2 yang bernas.
amal maaruf nahi mungkar.

Tapi ada ketika,
aku terserempak dengan insan2 yang terlalu rigid beragama.
Kritikan-kritikan pedas yang pada mataku, telah hilang hikmahnya.
Tindakan yang dilabelkan "its not sooo cool" oleh sesetengah pihak.
Insan-insan yang telah mewujudkan barrier dalam bersahabat.
Hanya kerana kemungkaran.
Benar, memang benar.
Benci seseorang adalah kerana benci akan maksiatnya.
Tetapi, bukankah lebih indah kalau kita bersama menggapai tangan sahabat itu.??
Bukankah lebih indah kalau syurga itu dikongsikan bersama???
Banyak dan sungguh banyak yang telah aku temui.
Jadi insan2 seperti aku terus tersentak.
Menusuk kalbu tetapi masih dibentengi keegooan yang merugikan.

Namun, tidak semua begitu..
Aku kagum akan seorang sahabatku,
yang giat mengusrahkan kami2.
Telah aku saksikan perubahan positif dalam diri beberapa teman ku.
Sungguh aku percayakan hidayah Allah.
dan aku berusaha mencarinya.
Hanya mungkin usaha aku masih sedikit.
InsyaAllah aku akan tetrus berusaha.. amiiinnn..

Aku terima nikahnya..
Juga mengajar aku,
hati kita amat sensitif..
Rasa gelisah kepada dosa dan rasa tenang akan kebaikan.
Sememangnya aku akui...
God, jus give me more time.

What do u expect from ur life huh????

Arghhh...
20th is really like a bad omen...
Hate 2 step inside and feel the doom myself...
I once thought, life gonna be wonderful..
time to view world as a woman.
not as a girl anymore..
haha, but lil did i know,
i really dont ready for it yet.

Please...do understand me...
When i said, i hate...
I really mean it...
No more hope please...
D part which i hate the most is to hurt others.
So, please dont hurt me.
I might talk nice,
talk sweetiestly,
I might say its ok,
but it doesnt mean i allow,
giving space neither enjoying the feeling.
No.. U are dealing with wrong ex teen ager.

I am different.
Really DIFFERENT.
Its hard to describe in words.
but i am really DIFFERENT.
its not phobia... its just kinda bad feeling...

i am not a perfect human..
Jus a girl with too much weakness.
So please... do respect me...

Do have me just as a friend...
no less, no more... thus, no harm...
For those outsiders who doesnt know me,
who think i am great, ketahuilah...
itu hanya kaburan mata2....
n who think i am bad...
itu jua kerana anda tidak mengenali me well..

(special 4 outsiders)
few things about me,
to love me is to be hated...
so, be ready...
to be my love,
is to be cool with me...
sedingin salju...
which me myself cannot reach deep inside.

Semoga Allah mengampuni dosa- dosaku...
Amiiinnnn..

Friday, December 25, 2009

plan...plan... n keep on planning

at last, my sem breaks come to d end jua.
Tomorrow im going back to usm..
huhu, my life after this, are expected to be more tired..
with more responsible.. n more jobs..
huhu..
get ready ainin.. go!!!

1. ooo great dinner... bout 1 month to go... is all about everything
2. my bigsib's babies... miss u guys.. such a long time x update...
3.mpi pentomin.. seb bek ade a very dedicated director..
huh.. we aim to be d champion lak.. aja2... yeah, we can...
4.gut block.. seniour had remind me, gut gonna be harubiru skit with d lecturers...
so kna be more alert n proactive...
5.faci 4 hiv event... 1 day jer kowt... huh... seems very exciting
6.oh bigsib n ums.. paperwork da dihantar...
no follow up... no ticket booked...
no deal with ums yet.. o wow...
7. elective program... kuala lumpur sport medical centre seems to be nice too...
8. oh hubungn etnic is coming...
no more ponteng lectures... Seb bek titas dpt b.. alhamdulillah...
but kalo dpt A would be better... strive 4 hub etnic lak...
9. Special surpise... token of appreciation

Huh... planning of kesibukan dunia, x kan pernah habis...
go chase after akhirat la plak...
dunia is jus like bayang2, n akhirat tu lampu...
chasing after shadow, light is getting far behind,
chasing after light, shadow will keep lagging..
Terasa penat la dengan dunia...
My fren pon perdengarkan a very nice quote...
penat, letih,sengsara, suka, cinta dunia akan hilang after a deep sleep,
tapi kebaikan n kejahatan dunia never fade away...
thus beramallah selagi nafas dikandung badan.
teruslah hidup dengan letih...
dan mengharapkan kerehatan yang panjang di akhirat kelak..

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

.....................

ak minta maaf...
ak budak jer...
x pandai pon bab2 tu...
da la marah...
sedeynyer rase...
its hard 4 me to tell d truth...
walaupon org kate, biarpon pahit,
berkata benarlah...
tapi, x kan kowt...
aku x nak main ngn api...
nanti, ak sendiri yang sakit...
skrang pon da rasa sakit..
sakit sangat...
I have sacrifice my part...
its ur part la plak...
Do forgive me...

Monday, December 21, 2009

Pemilik cintaku~

Ive just finish reading "pemilik cintaku, sesudah Allah dan rasul".
A kind of very nice and short islamic novel.
Written by mdm Fatimah Syarha Mohd Nordin.
huhu, cuti2 malaysia la katakan...

I start thinking,
my mind once again analysing vigorously.
How was my life 2 be compared with her.
We both muslim, we both women, we both tied with d same aqidah..
We both disyariatkan with d same tuntutan.
The only difference is, shes married,
n im single... unavailable...~ hahaha

But d way im living on,
d way i express myself is ..
terlalu berbeza dengan dia...
I was too fanatic chasing after d sukaduka of dis temporary life.
It was too beatiful in d eyes of me.
I was not greedy..
Not greedy to hope 4 better n d best,
Akhirat selamanya.
Menyesalkah aku???

Sahabat2ku, Dayah, farah, Alia is getting better..
much2 better than me,
kemanakah aku,
2010 is traking nearer..
I wish i could be a better person.

Doa pengasih
"Ya Allah jadikanlah hamba-Mu ini menyintai orang beriman dan jadikanlah orang yang beriman menyintaiku"

Doa which i suppose to read everyday,
everytime every after my pray...
tapi have i ever read???, have i ever ask???
x pernah pon... MASYAALLAH...
Terasa jahil sesangat..
Ainin, tolonglah...
I just wanna ask 2 things from u,
amal n istiqamah...
dats all...
do it for me... do it 4 ur own self...
InsyaAllah.... go ainin.. aja2 fighting...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Krisis air di usm kk

waa... Selanjar 1 is stepping nearer..
feel so scared n like nak menyerah jer...
grup study satu rase ni akhirnya study dalam kegembiraan....
study sikit, memain banyak...
yeah, avoid stresss...
notes still membukit...
huhuk...
dala, H2O crisis tngah menyerang..

Seb bek ari tu der terbaca entri kat blog oli..
how to survive in darurat..
hahahax~
prob with wudu' jer act..
nak bertapak kedesa lain, so far away n malas jale.

So seperti penceritaan oli di blog beliau,
kami pon membeli 1 mineral water kat kdai cik din..
N surprisingly, air tu macm ajaib...
sx wuduk mmg pakai like 1 gelas je.
carenyer...
1x setiap 1 anggota...
n wat yg wajib jer.
syarat dyer ratakan air tu, n jangan angkat tangan slgi x rata.
Terasa sungguh islam itu mudah je sebenarnya.
knapalah b4 ni, pembaziran air sangat berleluasa..
Terase cam 1 new xprience sungguh...

Saturday, December 5, 2009

untuk pau..


Hidop ni lagi best dr dye tau...
hahah...
dye tu x best pon...
budget best jer...
u r cuter, kind, n bnyk ag best features...
wahahahx...
Today i am happy...
sangat hEpi!!!!!
n makin hepi..
u know what, u r making my life brighter...
fell like back to my own self... full of life..
Previously, i tot dat, my life mmg g2, so pathetic.
But now, u make me realise, happiness is everywhere.
i dont have to be home just to feel it.
U said that, im different from my previous self at pasum..
aaahh.. i realise it 2, but now, here i am.....
N now...
going to face selanjar 1..
still be my own self in aspect of kemalasan belajar..
wahahahax... kalolah bley jd serajin mira n setekun aina..
huhuu..