hasil kerja nik suke ice...

so cute..
heron likes this..
today, i went to her room.
she looked so sad..
i feel like telling da world..
who d **** making my fren sad.
huuu~ no worries baby,,
if he/ she make u sad again...
report to me..
t sy bawak gang g cari insan2 tuh..
huh!!! berani diye..
(ces.. im acting cool again... heee~)

Killing me softly~

This post is special 4 her...
hahaha... cam men balas2 emel lak...
aku suka kamu kerana ketulusan hatimu..
aku suka kamu kerana nilai persahabatanmu...
aku suka kamu kerana kau suka baca blog aku...
aku suka kamu kerana kau biarkan aku suka dia..
aku suka kamu kerana disamping pembiaran itu,
kau ingatkan aku jalan yang lurus..

aku suka kamu kerana kau suruh aku gi surau selalu..
aku suka kamu kerana kau rajin dan bermotivasi...
aku suka kamu kerana kau bagi aku instrumental soundtract..
aku kini fall 4 romance n killing me softly..
aku suka kamu kerana kau ada adek yang hensem..
aku suka suka kamu kerana kau sering ada when i need u...
aku suka kamu kerana kau ada a very great personality..

tapi..
aku benci kamu kerana kau tak mahu kehadapan setelah apa yang kau usahakan
aku benci kamu kerana kau hanya ingin menjadi lilin...
menerangi others, tapi kek yang selalu dikenang..
aku benci kamu kerana aku sering sakitimu...
aku benci kamu when u dont want 2 susahkan me..
aku benci kamu when u ezily affected by emotion..
aku benci kamu kerana aku sayang kamu..

aku x kisah kau macam pau..
aku lagi x kisah kalau muke kau merah tahan malu..
aku x kisah kalau kau suke ct..
ak x kisah kalo ko nak suruh ak jd kd...
aku x kisah kalo kau da matang..
minum coffee instaed of nescafe ice..
baju maroon instead of pink...
aku juga x kisah untuk susahkan kamu
(at lis i can try 4 dis.. n hampir success da pown)

...tapi...
aku kisah kalo ko x senyum..
aku kisah kalo ko x wat lawak...
ak kisah kalo ko ponteng lecture..
ak kisah kalo kau x nak share ape yg kau rase...

apa2 pon, kau adalah kau..
aku adalah aku..
n aku hepi bangat 2 have kau 2 be kawan ak..

i love my friends

Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.....
Alhamdulilah... kami dpt no2 pentomin muslimat...
This is a very great sign for us...
We have to work harder to make us 1.
one in erti kata, satu hati...
Not the hamper that we care much,
The value of friendship n effort n commitment are things that we we appreciate the most.
Kenapa harus aku yang amik hadiah???
it is supposed to be nad, oye or farah or aisyah...
masalahnya... kawan2 aku semua pemalu...
huhu....
aku hanya insan kecil di situ..

hahaha..
i mis my family so much now..
lama da x kol...
asyik2 my mom yg kol me...
adus, maaf ibu.. ankmu sibuk jual donut skunk...
wahahahha...

I love my frens so much...
a love nad, su, farah, karimah, aina, mira, jenny, kak chaq...
semua la...
n aku harapkan kasih sayang ni jua berkekalan
sebagaimana aku mencintai my family...
huhu..
thanx frens..
what a great day we had today...
x luper...
congrats to wawa too...
hheeee~

Aku fikir aku tegar

Sometimes, when i look outside,

Deep staring on the sky,

I see birds flying.

And i knew, human also can~

I want to fly high.

Fly away happily.

And Im trying right now.

Sometimes, i feel like a maron.

hardly in effort deleting the im from d impossible.

And i know,

To make it possible, is to be brave.

and more hardwork.

I dont mind.

I dont care the result.

What i care is,

u... he...she... they... them...

whoever with me, to realise the dream.

I believe we all can fly..

hari isnin di bulan january

ermm... lately i always go speechless...
plus brainless..
in lecture, owes sleepy..
mlam owes malas tidur...
huh!!! what a curse!!! apa salah aku ngn mahsuri??? ape!!!

Tadi our ct went nicely...
dr andy is a great dc.
He teach us what is a great history taking n how should it be..
even thousands times been repeated,
we always produce rubbish..
Hopefully, after 2day lesson,
we would be a great history taker.
hahah

Tadi juge ade usrah ngn k.syu..
Hari ni, iffah talk bout complication of banyak gelak!!!
LIVER NECROSIS @ hati mati.
huh.. terpempan di c2.

Lagi tadi I went to c tda..
syangat malu... huhu..
cam bluurrr g2... ampun ibu..

waaa... syangat rindu elin...
she resembles my sister.. weee~
td da jumper dy, but ramai org . malu nak main ngn dy... hahaha
hopefully esok ley main ngn dy g..
elin yg nakal....

mpi suda mareeeeyyyy~

Guess what???
we are working hard on pentomin nasyid...
extra credit n bonus given 2 nadiah n oye...
S d directornye...
Credit also given 2 all my frens yg sudi menjoinkan diri..
even had been warned earlier,
dat, a lot af times are going to be sacrificed...
In this week je pooonn.
hahahh.. tq2...
Im not hoping to be d champion,
but i am hoping that this such activity will bring us luck n hikmah.
akan menyatukan kami2..
I am not even expecting that bella n k.tifah will join us.
It such an honor for me. o wow...

netball pown...
karnival sukan psp n nurani match are waiting for us...
Tak tahu kenapa semanagat sangat nak join...
B4 ni x pernah pown nak build team o wat soeva...
But then r2, acap request 1 team from our batch...
per g, kerahan tenaga... yataaa
at last, ramai jer pon nak join...
huhu, yesterday, main suke2 with y.4 team...
so great... o wow..
huhu... Semoga memory kami2 akan terus terpahat...
4 dis, extra credit given 2 farah...
ooo yeahh... kami akan terus memanfaatkan keremajaan...

penat tapi x mau tido...~

Huhu... i took dat bas last night,

on my journey back to usm... tah peper..

bus like rapid kl g2.. ganti bas rosak kowt..

ah, at lis camat campai..

right now,

my eyes is very tired like nak mati da... but still degil nak close...

oh mater, tidolah...

buku da bukak..

x nak bace la plak... soooo kambing...

di manakah azam baruku menyorok di kala malam ini...

Huhu, ive deactivate my muka buku..

so bored...like loosing arah tuju g2...

so have 2 waste my time blogging...

malam ni like kiciwa sikit...

ah... 2moro der pbl... sgt malas...

Td g d classic ngn nad2...

enjoying my bukak puasa meal..

chickenchop 2 beb...

hahahha,,, budget western cenggiteeewww...

lame gak lepak2 n borak2..

yeaa... kami minah chat...

oh tidooolah kamuuuu...

tito

black heron... u gedik la...

Bismilahirrahmanirrahim...
Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang;;;
Ermm... so jarang i start my entries with basmalah..
Today i feel like nak wat. hee~
2night, 11 pm ill t8 my bus n headed 2 usm..
wahuk2... so sedey..
cuti da abes...
azam baru ku... kill d mukabuku...
perosak kehidupan... adus..

Erm right now in process of habiskan buku
"aku terima nikahnya"
org len da berkurun baca..
aku baru nak start baca...
at lis bace k..
ermmm... really nice book.. lots better than pemilik cintaku...
banyak gak hati tersentap dengan jawapan kepada persoalan kehidupan..
Especially dlm bab hidup beragama nih...

"Jangan kita wujudkan fitnah kepada islam itu sendiri"
Huh, terus terang aku katakan..
aku keliru, aku dekati mereka yang dekat pada islam.
Tapi atas kelemahan aku, aku kembali pada hidup aku yg suam2 kuku..
nak jadi insan yg sederhana la konon.

Sungguh aku keliru..
Islam itu rasional...
dan ada cara yang lebih hikmah untuk menentang sesuatu kemungkaran.
Aku menyokong boikot atas hiburan yang melampau-lampau.
Aku juga menyokong ats segala kritikan2 yang bernas.
amal maaruf nahi mungkar.

Tapi ada ketika,
aku terserempak dengan insan2 yang terlalu rigid beragama.
Kritikan-kritikan pedas yang pada mataku, telah hilang hikmahnya.
Tindakan yang dilabelkan "its not sooo cool" oleh sesetengah pihak.
Insan-insan yang telah mewujudkan barrier dalam bersahabat.
Hanya kerana kemungkaran.
Benar, memang benar.
Benci seseorang adalah kerana benci akan maksiatnya.
Tetapi, bukankah lebih indah kalau kita bersama menggapai tangan sahabat itu.??
Bukankah lebih indah kalau syurga itu dikongsikan bersama???
Banyak dan sungguh banyak yang telah aku temui.
Jadi insan2 seperti aku terus tersentak.
Menusuk kalbu tetapi masih dibentengi keegooan yang merugikan.

Namun, tidak semua begitu..
Aku kagum akan seorang sahabatku,
yang giat mengusrahkan kami2.
Telah aku saksikan perubahan positif dalam diri beberapa teman ku.
Sungguh aku percayakan hidayah Allah.
dan aku berusaha mencarinya.
Hanya mungkin usaha aku masih sedikit.
InsyaAllah aku akan tetrus berusaha.. amiiinnn..

Aku terima nikahnya..
Juga mengajar aku,
hati kita amat sensitif..
Rasa gelisah kepada dosa dan rasa tenang akan kebaikan.
Sememangnya aku akui...
God, jus give me more time.

What do u expect from ur life huh????

Arghhh...
20th is really like a bad omen...
Hate 2 step inside and feel the doom myself...
I once thought, life gonna be wonderful..
time to view world as a woman.
not as a girl anymore..
haha, but lil did i know,
i really dont ready for it yet.

Please...do understand me...
When i said, i hate...
I really mean it...
No more hope please...
D part which i hate the most is to hurt others.
So, please dont hurt me.
I might talk nice,
talk sweetiestly,
I might say its ok,
but it doesnt mean i allow,
giving space neither enjoying the feeling.
No.. U are dealing with wrong ex teen ager.

I am different.
Really DIFFERENT.
Its hard to describe in words.
but i am really DIFFERENT.
its not phobia... its just kinda bad feeling...

i am not a perfect human..
Jus a girl with too much weakness.
So please... do respect me...

Do have me just as a friend...
no less, no more... thus, no harm...
For those outsiders who doesnt know me,
who think i am great, ketahuilah...
itu hanya kaburan mata2....
n who think i am bad...
itu jua kerana anda tidak mengenali me well..

(special 4 outsiders)
few things about me,
to love me is to be hated...
so, be ready...
to be my love,
is to be cool with me...
sedingin salju...
which me myself cannot reach deep inside.

Semoga Allah mengampuni dosa- dosaku...
Amiiinnnn..

plan...plan... n keep on planning

at last, my sem breaks come to d end jua.
Tomorrow im going back to usm..
huhu, my life after this, are expected to be more tired..
with more responsible.. n more jobs..
huhu..
get ready ainin.. go!!!

1. ooo great dinner... bout 1 month to go... is all about everything
2. my bigsib's babies... miss u guys.. such a long time x update...
3.mpi pentomin.. seb bek ade a very dedicated director..
huh.. we aim to be d champion lak.. aja2... yeah, we can...
4.gut block.. seniour had remind me, gut gonna be harubiru skit with d lecturers...
so kna be more alert n proactive...
5.faci 4 hiv event... 1 day jer kowt... huh... seems very exciting
6.oh bigsib n ums.. paperwork da dihantar...
no follow up... no ticket booked...
no deal with ums yet.. o wow...
7. elective program... kuala lumpur sport medical centre seems to be nice too...
8. oh hubungn etnic is coming...
no more ponteng lectures... Seb bek titas dpt b.. alhamdulillah...
but kalo dpt A would be better... strive 4 hub etnic lak...
9. Special surpise... token of appreciation

Huh... planning of kesibukan dunia, x kan pernah habis...
go chase after akhirat la plak...
dunia is jus like bayang2, n akhirat tu lampu...
chasing after shadow, light is getting far behind,
chasing after light, shadow will keep lagging..
Terasa penat la dengan dunia...
My fren pon perdengarkan a very nice quote...
penat, letih,sengsara, suka, cinta dunia akan hilang after a deep sleep,
tapi kebaikan n kejahatan dunia never fade away...
thus beramallah selagi nafas dikandung badan.
teruslah hidup dengan letih...
dan mengharapkan kerehatan yang panjang di akhirat kelak..