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Sunday, June 19, 2016

aKu DaN LanGkAwI

Salam sahabat

Lama tanganku kaku.
Tandus idea.
Banyak cerita yang tak tercerita

Kisahku banyak. Berbuku buku namun terbiar sepi.

Hari ini inginku belanja kepingan kepingan gambar.
Buat simpanan memori kita kita di masa depan



Aku kini di bumi Mahsuri menumpah bakti.
Gred 44 yang menjadikan aku sendiri di bumi yang istimewa ini.



Kini genap sebulan aku sendiri. Rindu datang dan pergi.
Menjadi medical Mo yang bukan pilihan aku.
Ada masa aku sepi. aku sepi
Ada masa aku tertekan. aku tertekan.
Tetapi akulah medical MO.
Tanggungjawab aku lebih aula dari emosiku yang sepi dan tertekan.





Mak cik pakcik.Wajahmu cerminan wajah ibubapaku.
Baktiku pada makcik pakcik, baktiku pada ibubapaku.
Moga dengan berbakti pada kamu, mereka yang lain akan berbakti pada ibubapaku
Moga kita kita dalam reda Ilahi selalu.





Gambar yang biasa biasa saja.
Tiada yang istimewa.
Tapi inginku belanja juga sekeping wajahku.
Untuk ingatanku pada masa mudaku bila ia berlalu pergi.
Untuk ingatan mereka yang ada bila aku tiada.


* Gambar dan warkahku kaitanya tiada. Tapi masih dalam genre yang sama. Moga terhibur

Saturday, July 11, 2015

I wish he could listen more

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Hi Peeps. Miss me? ahaksz. Now Im doing my paediatric posting as my 5th posting.
Lately my life goes crazy.
Theres a stone in my heart that I want to get rid away.
I have been misjudge and punished unfairly.

Things happened  when a staff ask me to take a manual blood pressure of a nephro patient post blood transfusion.
And I sesuke hati refuse by saying ' akak suruhla ho nephro ambil'.
Yeah that is the reason off all the bullshit.
Little did I know the Nephro HO were not around.
And little did I know the patient had post blood transfusion complication  which are vomitting and headache.
The staff did not tell me all those nor she did not come back to me telling the blood pressure havent taken yet. I really thought everything was settled by then.

Then by pm, my superior called me.
The convesrsation goes like this.

Him: Who are you? Ho or Mo?
Me  : Ho
Him :Is it true my staff said you refuse to take the blood pressure of my  patient?
Me   :Emmm.. Yeah.. ( Stunted dy)
Him  :-All those cacimaki - I will extend you for a month!
Me    : STUNTED... ok .. and leave the scene coz im holding back my tears dy.

It is still my mistake in the first place but I dont think that I deserve to receive  such punishment and scold.

Should he listen to me first than punish me later? I was so heart broken. why cant he listen more.Why did the staff goes and report about the incident to my MO. And why did my MO report to my superior without asking me  first why and what happened actually. Like she didnt know how my superior was.

Did they really had to punish me like this. Im so frustrated already.
It comes to my mind ' Am I really a bad HO to deserve all this?
Things happened. Whatever I did, I wont  come clean anymore. The scar is there already.
So anyone out there.Do listen more.
Tak salah tersalah memaafkan dari tersalah menghukum.

And i dont think I can bear to see all those facies anymore.




Monday, September 1, 2014

dia yang merAJUK


sumpah!
aku jumpa dia dalam lenaku.
aku jumpa dia dalam jagaku.

Tapi hari ini, dia merajuk denganku,
satu kataku, satulah katanya.
janganlah begitu.
runsing aku.

hai si awak,
esok tersenyumlah seperti selalu,
kerana aku juga ingin senyum melihatmu :)

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Now im gonna talk about my verily 2nd posting which is surgery...
Huhu.. im adapting well now. I can do work faster. I am not the blurr ainin anymore. Except the fact that i still the lazy to read ho as usual.


I make friends.. there is senior and there is junior.. we work in a team here. I have my own surgical sibs as well. I really love the atmosphere here.

Klah.. bye


Tuesday, December 17, 2013

last minute job

OMG....
i am pm shift today..
yet i have my mid assessment today with mr mara.
Havent prepare well though.
plus i should present my cme today.
and im still preparing the slide now..
omg, ainin ainin..

still take sometime updating blog...
oh should change should change.

hope im doing okay todAY
 :D

dust to dust



Some song means something.
Sometimes they mean everything.
But they also can mean nothing.

I listen listen and listen to those songs.
Just to bring me away from things that I dont want to think.

Life isnt easy nowadays.
Got a lot of stress in ward.
I cant handle stress well.

Some peoples bring me smile.
Some peoples make me strong.
Some peoples make me stay where I should stay.

Somehow I know.
Ive learnt.
Ive learnt learnt from those lessons in the past.
Not to hook. Not to engage.

Not to hook. Not to engage.

Not to hook. Not to engage.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

cOunT On mE

Oh uh-huh
If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
When we are called to help our friends in need

[Chorus:]
You can count on me like 1, 2, 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I can count on you like 4, 3, 2
You'll be there
'Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
Ooooooh, oooohhh yeah, yeah

[Verse 2:]
If you're tossin' and you're turnin'
And you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Every day I will remind you

Oooh
Find out what we're made of
When we are called to help our friends in need

[Chorus:]
You can count on me like 1, 2, 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I can count on you like 4, 3, 2
You'll be there
'Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
Ooooooh, oooohhh yeah, yeah

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go, never say goodbye
You know...

[Chorus:]
You can count on me like 1, 2, 3
I'll be there
And I know when I need it
I can count on you like 4, 3, 2
You'll be there
'Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah
Ooooooh, oooohhh

You can count on me 'cause I can count on you

Sunday, December 1, 2013

heaven call

time moves up. Im aging.
Im going through new things everyday.
Life changed.
But I have never learned.

" Young lady, U have never learned"

Tak susah. Tak senang.
Tapi aku tetap x faham.

x faham.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

aku suka sama orthopedic

assalamualaikum ladies

tup tup sudah hampir 5 minggu aku di orthopedik htaa.
aku suka aku suka.
aku suka sama doktor doktornya
aku suka sama teman temannya.


setiap hari ada saja insan yang buat aku ketawa.
setiap hari ada saja aku kontrol gelak sambil terhinjut hinjut bahu.
mahu gelak bahak bahak gaya aku, ada masa ada ketika.
bukan suka suka bila bila masa saja.

tapi ada ketika aku juga kena marah.
kerana aku insan biasa,
tapi kata mereka, masuk telinga kanan dan keluar telinga kiri.
okay.
apa mahu buat moto mereka moto kami ' keep calm and blame the housemen"
okay.

aku suka dia

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

ortho lagi

Assalamualaikum ladies..

How I remember I love updating about love story one time ago.
Write about everything that I feel inside out.
Haha, now work change everything.
So true when people said, working life is much different with study life.
DAMN TRUE MAN!

Life totally changed. Upside down.
All the feeling that I have one time ago, now I lost it.
All that I worries day night is, how to survive tomorrow. Am I able to proceed with my carrier?
What challenge that Im gonna face when I wake up in the morning on the next day?
What ? How? When?
All these are the new challenges to me.
NEW NEW NEW!

Back to orthopedic.
Alhamdulillah I finally finish my tagging period.
I already start my shift work.
Wow, this is the real life man.

Khairil.
This man really inspire me,
Yesterday he really broke down, knowing he have to extend the orthopedic posting.
God, I really hope it does not affect him much.
Deep inside I feel so relieved since I still have a lot  to learn from him.
I believed, whatever happened to us is merely God play.
He know what best for us. HE know. HE know.

Dr Md Adzuar.
He is the first MO that i worked with during my first A&E shift.
Lucky me, he is not as straight as other MO's.
* Siap boleh cubit2 bahu I lagi when I present so horrible ~ flirting much~
hahah.. Alhamdulillah, everything went well so far.
I just hope I can keep survive in this career.
Ya Allah, help me, help us to go through this. Ameen.