Neurosurgeon is cool

Nah. If U see them, they are very cool.
They do tracheostomy bedside.
They use their higher cortical function to the upper limit.
Unlike all those medical student.
Itu bak kata Dr Badrishah.

Till now, I havent do any procedure.
I havent take blood yet.
I havent set IV line yet.
I havent done depot injection yet.
I havent done ABG yet.
So frustrating.


Tonight I went to Course Night.
It was fun.
And it bring me back all my memories with my friends.
And it reminds me, time move so fast.

Enjoy your life. Dont take enemy. Be humble. Be cheer.

Tebal muke

I really dont understand why most of my friends ni sengal sangat..
Ya Allah, I was really in deep embarrassment ni.
I wish I have a thick face.
SANGAT! bukan sikit.
Okay, chill Ainin...
peoples will forget. food will expired. lives will dead.
END OF STORY.

...................

11.10.2011

what do i expect?
-.-"

tomorrow i will work up.
ill make it better than today.. yosh!

im tired! seriously.
ok now lets put my self in sedation mode to protect my cerebrum.
Oh! I still have tomorrow (^.^)

"nurse, midazolam please"

Tomorrow

Things change for sure. But not everything will.

There are certain things which locked inside and stay the way it is. UNTOUCHED.

Have U ever afraid of a gift?

Yeah, if tomorrow is a gift, then I will be afraid of tomorrow.

There is a history and there is a story.

Dear tomorrow,

I have no other words.

Just promise me, there is always tomorrow for me.

9 okt 2011

Its neuroscience that I am working with.
Its High dificiency unit (HDU) where I reside in.

N tonight is my first oncall.
N I am still blurr as ever.
N I am enjoying this posting much.

N Go! Fight! Win!
Its not a battle within us, the friends.
Its a battle between me myself.

Jom tengok battle sign in basal skull fracture..
>0<

Bicara en khairil anuar

Hari ni I ade dengar sort of tazkirah dari bipolar patient.
As U guys know, patient with bipolar ni ade a lot of ideas untuk dikongsi.
N ape yang baik I ambil iktibar, mana yg mengarut tu I bawak keluar ikut telinga kiri.

Katenye die s ultromen di dunia ni ade tugas untuk menghapuskan 2 raksasa di muka bumi ini.
2 raksasa itu ialah..... orang yg x solat n sexs bebas.

Dis pesan sama sy supaya menjaga hubungan dengan Allah dan manusia.
Asal manusia sama. zero. yang tentukan kejayaan n bezakan kita adalah RAJIN dan PEMBERIAN ALLAH.
Pantasnya harus ada SYUKUR.

SPM 1 yang pelajar menengah tinggi takutkan itu adalah sangaaaatttt kecil jikalau kita lebih fokus kepada SPM2.
apa itu SPM 1....? Sijil Penilaian Menengah.
apa itu SPM 2....? Sijil Padang Mahsyar.

Ok. saya diuji lagi. apa significant no 23 dalam hidup... sy jawab no ong!
Katanya Al Quran diturunkan ambil masa 23 tahun untuk complete.
haha.. sy lupelah.

next question, dia bacakan sy ayat alquran, n dia tanya surah apakah itu n khasiatnye.
lepas 2 kali hentam salah, baru I ingat tu surah Al Mulk..
n binggo! n surah itulah bakal menyelamatkan dari azab kubur.
n dia pesan sama saya supaya amalkan b4 tidur.

Pesanan terakhir dari beliau is, jadilah dr yg baik.
how? need affection.
sayang sama semua pesakit.. senyum bila sedih n letih.
kalau dr sakit, pesakit lagi sakit.
kalau dr sedih, pesakit lagi sedih.
kalau dr stress, pesakit lagi stress..

teeettt... beliau berjaya membuat i merembeskan adrenalin hormone.
sedikit haru.
saat beliau menasihati kami, beliau masih belum pulih.
 insight masih poor.
tapi bicaranya peeerggghhhh! sentap!

p/s: seriously sayang I nak tinggalkan posting ni... Berbicara sama mereka x sama macam bicara sama mereka yg mentally fit. x caye, nanti U all rasakan...  huhu =D

eeeeeee.....

weekend yg super punye malas.

report yg cilok pun nggak siap2 ag..

Btw thanxs to faris sb bg patient die untuk sy wt report..

hikhikhik..

Kadang kadang kite rase cam need changes in life kan.

bukan sebab kita bosan dengan hidup tapi sebab we need something untuk terus melangkah.

n perlu reason.

terkurung dalam bilik n dikelilingi buku yang x terbaca is not my way in conducting life.

dats y la i never be a clever student.

kalau x, fuuuhhhh, sume kacang Goreng je medic ni.

janji harus ade RAJIN aje.

Tapi melangkah ke tahun 4, bilemane otak anda kosong,

satu rase je yg akan ade kat hati ni, ANXIETY.

rational anxiety.

bimbang bile log book x penuh, binbang bile exam end of posting hari rabu ni,

n bimbang bile tade mood pun nak study tekun2.

Sy ni mmg suke harapkan miracle but I know, miracle wont bring me far away.

Cane eh nak put flavour in medicine nh.

Seriously I xtau I ley survive x 4th year ni kalo i keep duduk camni

Hmmmm... sy x suke pk panjang2..

buat otak penat je.

hidup sempoi2 kan senang.

kan2?

p/s: Dear sister, if U read this, ketahuilah I jeles tengok bebi2 comel lm fb.. milik kawan2 sy punye kakak... Saya teringin sgt nak dapat niece... biar die panggil sy, Cik Nini... hm,, berape tahun lagi harus sy tunggu ye? hahhaha... heee... Seriously cannot wait any longer. :)

Has a song ever make U cry?

Answer : Yeah. It has.

satu tips untuk berhadapan dgn orang yg annoying:
jerit kuat-kuat dalam hati "HEK ELEH!"
anda akan rasa best..:D
caution: jangan sampai terlepas kat mulut. binasa lah anda..

( I copy this from Nurul Nadiah Abdull Rasid's previous fb status)

hahaha and it worked.. lagi best kalau dapat palingkan muke kat belakang n herot herotkan mulut sikit...

puas hati UUUU... heeee

Masuk clinical years ni memang akan ada high chances untuk stress...

Especially bila ade log book yang sibuk menyeru nyeru dalam minda.

macam satu curse. macam 2ndry auditory hallucination , commanding in nature.

"Gi la clerk case, gi la clerk case"... huhu

and of course I will try to reduce any other stressor to the minimum level.

contohnye:

1. Beranikan diri untuk present case. kalau x pekasam jela ape yg U all clerk tu

2. Buat Hek elleh dalam hati bile ade things yg annoy U. X payahla pendam2 and act cool.. cool kat luar x pe, dlm hati tu lepaskan amarah anda. U cn apply this after having been treated badly by nurses... huhu

3. Jangan tangguhkan kerja

4. Make sure bilik dalam keadaan kemas yang maximum

5. Stock food jangan putus

6. Defence mechanism play a big role here. anything which disturb your mind and your heart, be cool please. we have sublimation n suppression 2 be applied.

7. Believe urself. U r strong! N u cannot be melt even under high temperature, because U r U. N U live ur life..

p/s: I was eager to go to my sis's convocation day. Finally it come. See U there sis. Doakan my journey ni selamat2 aje yea.. hahah

smiles

senyum tanpa suara and it makes me feel pretty :)