stress~ life was not always beautiful

I start to feel like my life really was at the end of the world.
It has ended.
My career to be has put the fullstop to my life
Crying~

I act like i dont care.
i actually care it very much.
Everything has gone on the opposite direction.
You really wont understand what has gotten in my heart.
Look at me..
look at me as me.
And try to feel how does it affect me.
Okay! I am not a strong young girl.. i am not.!

This past 3 years, everything goes d same.
First time, i do not feel anything.
2nd time i can tolerate it.
3rd time, it is too much..
oh still have d 4th n 5th to bear.
crying~

Resistance!!! I need you!!!
I cannot hold this anymore..
it is tiring..
it is breaking!!!
Oh ..

p/s: Next time.. just dont call me.. dont inform me anything.. just act like i do not exist.. It is someway better for me..