pusing~

I feel like really a bad girl..
I try my best 2 cri d henset...
i force d makcik to mngaku bersalah jgk.
i ugut dye, if dye, x nak ngaku,
ill report to police...
Do i am a really bad girl????
i have alot of evidence to tduh dye...
Just, dye still x nak ngaku..
She even said" mengo ko mu ni"
oh Allah... I am really sorry..
X perla, sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah...
Allah itu maha Adil...
kita akn berjumpa kat akhirat nanti..
huhu... somehow, my mind really serabut ni...
Luckily, my car da siap service... plan 2 amik enset kat kdai ptg ni.
I really feel heartless now...
Nothing 2 ease me..
i am really dissapointed with myself.. huhu
I feel like sangat malas nak work with my ketua.
He even doesnt ask me a thing bout given task...
life like heaven... i wish so...
huhu, malas nak g kelas gak nih...
semalam i ajak farh main badminton kat dewan aerobik...
hahha, kna tegor ngn pak cik tu da...
x ley main kat situ... cedey~ dewan bad rmai ore laki...
Somewhat, i have 2 main, 2 release my mind...
projek psp ni, pon x gerak g...
ainin oh ainin...
suker tangguh kerja...
susanya, nak pikir konsep n theme~
i wanna do my best...
n make d day, an unforgotton one...
Common ainin, chayok2...

fight pakcik! fight

huhu...
alhamdulillah ct 4 2day went smoothly.
Dr shameem is a very nice dr.
n i got a very nice patient too.
Dis is 1st heart attack for en aziz..
he is young ...
jus 36 years old.. too young too have myocardial infarction..
huhu... life is really unsacarable~
My tears also feel like wetting my cheek.
I imagine his future life..
What chances do he has.
i have no answer.
He have a very happy family and d youngest son, 5 years old.
After d session ended, he asked 4 BO.
N then, d nurse n dc doesnt allow him 2 go 2 toilet.
He had 2 do it at the bed.
of cos with tirai tertutup.
Pity of him.. I understand how does he feel~
But, not a bit pon, i can share d sadness...
He still portray a nice smile..
Fight pakcik... fight...
u must live longer...

Peoples are seeking for smile

Peoples have to do alot of things.
sometimes we are happy doing it.
sometimes we are not.
But, we know life keep going.

As we crawl,
we knew, we are moving.
Step by step, we are still moving.
We are searching... searching for everything we wish to.
Searching for smiles.

Then they start grouping.
Because people know, we get stronger when we are in group.
We knew that there must be someone to rely on,
When we are tired of crawling.

Life is not a competition.
It is not about who own the sweetest smile,
It is not about the frequency of smiling.
It is all about the way we define smile itself.

I define the smile as a gift.
I am happy if i can make others smiling.
I am happy if others can make me to smile.
Even when i am tired,
recieving or giving this gift can cheer me up.
With this, I am happy even if crawl alone.

Just, dont let d past, passed..
keep it, lead it~

ct on ischemic heart disease

not in spirit of blogging recently...
cannot take pic.. lol
clinical teaching oh ct...
2day, jannah n vithia present an old female with ischemic heart disease case.
dr Shapawi, a cardiologist very busy one but besh...
2day homework...
ischemic cardiac chest pain
location : central, difuse
radiation : jaw, neck, shoulder, arm (occasionally back)
character : tight, squeezing, choking
precipitation : exertion n emotion
relieving fc : rest, quick response 2 nitrates
ass. feature : breathlessness

n he asked us 2 find bout "new york heart association functional classification"..
class 1: no limitation drg ordinary actvt
2: slight limitation " "
3:marked limitation of normal actvt but no symptoms at rest
4:symptoms at phy actvt n may b present at rest

Mary asked y d mak cik eyes cam der whitish ring surround d cornea..
dc kata itu adalah "archus senilis"...
oh upanya itu adlh fat deposition.. older people slalu der..

Yes... I just bought my stathescop.. haha..
br semangat nk g ct..
here, d nerdy one improved..P

i hope it is a dream~

Healthex just reached the tirai penutup.
Life is truly enjoyable this few days.
No books, no notes, no pe...no studies..
everything is just about breast ca.
huhhuuhu..

su's handset together with my sim card had been stolen.
call2, at last, rini an aunt angkat..
when i said dat i had lost my phone,
dy trus ltak n off d phone
my car's petrol tube pecah n i had 2 sent it 4 service
wh i dont know ble ley dpt lik.
my supernova rosak lagi...
n x ley antr kdai .. no kete.
huhu... life is terribly messy.
seb bek hidup ni besh..

ri2 g kilang budu..
di hari yg panas..
mmg pengalaman yg bermanfaat.

My heart cannot stand these~

my 2nd, 3rd, 4th ...heart...my feeling's store

Have u ever feel, hate of being urself..
erm.. i felt it alot..
I had a very easily crack heart..
It cannot hold too much feeling.
Thus, its making me damn sensitive person.
I cannot be too happy, too much laugh,
otherwise, ill be crying at the end.
I cannot face sadness,
So ill end up with lying.
Just to make them happy.
I cannot stare into eyes,
then i will be hating.
I cannot be pampered,
otherwise, I will be rejecting.
These feeling is torturing me.
I just want to be cool.
Miliki hati sekeras batu.
Assertive and more transparent...
Thus, i always hoping.. dat i am an invisible human..
no one will notice me and no one will care about me.
I just want to be free from those feeling.
Is there any treatment or manouvers that can help me???.

warkah buat nadnad

that windy night,
after aishah had successfully spoiled nad's birthday surprise,
they did it..
jejalan...memaakan...bebaling air busyuk n kejar- kejaran.
me, s usual, kaki sibuk jer..

warkah buat kamu,
PASUM menjadi tirai cerita kita.
Setia kamu menanti Zurith di kerusi itu. ( kusi kat bawah 2...tyme nak g tuto)
Setia kamu bersama kelompok sahabat2 seseri mu.
Setia kamu bersama S3..
dan bersama kesetiaanmu, aku kenali kamu.
heee..

Bulat...
Mari berusaha sama2..
Menjadi insan yg berilmu di dada.
Terus tersenyum bila sekeliling berduka..
Terus tersenyum bila ada yang menyakiti.
Terus tersenyum biarpun air mata ingin mengalir.
Terus tersenyum biarpun mereka mengatakan tidak.
Terus tersenyum biarpun mereka berpaling.
Dan jangan sesekali kita yang menyakiti..

Suatu masa, masa, keadaan atau apa sahaja..
mungkin menjarakkan kau dan aku..
namun ingat, telah kita ikatkan tali ukhuwah itu..
Sejauh mana terpisah, kita masih bernaung di bawah akidah yang sama.
Kita masih menyembah tuhan yang Esa...
oleh kerana itu, ingatlah aku..
sebagai seorang sahabat..
kasihku kerana Allah, kasihmu kerana Allah..
Bersamalah kita mengejar keredahaanNya..
~ ayat2 di waktu pagi yg hening n bosan melampau~
But seriously no joke!

aku punya raya yg ke 20 kali

Aku beraya lagi!
At least tahun ni, x bangun kol 12 noon like last year.
sempat solat raya n mandi sunat raya.
So, dis is my 2nd raya s budak medik yg nerd.
again..purple again...
its not me who make d choice after all.
balik2, my grandmom, da bli kain n mok long da jahit suda~

here n there, peoples talked, "nila anok abe pa hok duk kube kerie tu??"
erm, ore kg mmg respek dc...
errrrmmm..... lambat lagi meekkk weeiii...
doala ko ambo biar selamat..
K. norli asked me bout psoriasis..
K. ni asked me bout delivery.
Abe mi oyak... dc nini, x soh dok pisohla mok n anok selagi mok x raso sakit beranok.
Selame lame ibu mengandung 4 years, (maryam)
n sesingkat pregnancy, 2 lahzoh...2 ketika..
bt, tetau jela, ibu bila da lepas due, dc akan inject ubat,
2 pecahkan amnion n induce ibu bersalin..

Ika plok admitted 2 ward. Suspected with appendicitis..
Again, people were directing 2 me..
ask me dis n dat...
Sebisa mungkin aku cuba untuk menjawab, n d rest" nini x taula, x blajo g"
But nila kepuasan yg aku rasa..
ilmu aku untuk dikongsi, bukan lagi 4 exam purpose cam dulu.
Terima kasih tuhan!

half day at Pusat pemulihan dalam komuniti

'Fad nak ikut'....

huuu... at last after pujuk aisyah, akhirnya disini kami.

Joined 8th n 9th group doing their field visit in tumpat, kelate.

x malu toll..

act im from 1st pbl grup n aisyah 15 kot.

but i bet ramai x tau pon.

except fad, acap n kautsar.

Seb bek pn sofea bg ikut. heee~

lor...ambo plok hok bagi ucapan aluan...x menahan.

Syamimi was having cerebral pulsy since she was 1 years old.

after having high grade fever n several fitting.

n now she is 5 years old.

oh...ak kagum akan ayahnya.

seorang nelayan biasa. Tapi padaku beliau seorang ayah yang luarbiasa.

Its remind me how thankful we are.

N for all becoming mother's, do take care of pregnancy carefully

especiallly on d diet things.

Ak hanya mampu mengharapkan , they'll grown up and able 2 independent.

Kelengkapan yang serba kurang, namun aku bangga akan pengerusinya.

En jalaluddin... sungguh berusaha~

senja bersama mek ti

suatu senja,
su tanye....
y do i love be alone??...
huhu...
yeah, compared 2 my elder sister n both my younger brothers,
im quite a lonely person...
huhhu.. i just feel happy live in dat way..
i hate crowd... i hate hipocrit human..
n i really hate being scolded by peoples..
dis is d life i choose..
during my school days, i love hiding myself in class kosong...
g ssp, i spent my prep time in d newspaper room.
Then, jaja came...
We studied sejeq 2gether...
hahha...
oih memory~