Dissociative fugue + felt toys

Cool~ I spend my evening by watching Nurse Betty. All 12 episodes of them. It is a story about a middle aged married waitress who experienced "DISSOCIATIVE FUGUE" after witnessed his husband murder.

So, what is the dissociative fugue?  It is part of psychological unconcious defence mechanism which is classified under dissociative disorder due to certain severe stress, trauma, and what so on. It has features of amnesia ( loss of  memory) , loss of personal identity and entire past life, by assumption of a new identity.

In the Betty case, after witnessed his husband murder, she was shocked and escaped the reality of murder into the comforting fantasy of her favourite drama, A reason to love". She thought the drama was a real. She loss her memory and travel away, assuming a new identity, which was the ex-fiance of the Dr David, hero in the drama. Yeah, it is a good drama. You should watch on your own to understand better the " dissociative fugue" thing. Somehow, at the end Betty regain her memory back....

Oh hoooo~ after finish with the drama, I proceed with googling some handmade craft. And this felt toys really catch my eyes. Haha, now I have plan what to do with my long break after my Pro 2 later on. Huhuuu~ really look forward for it already... Nota sedang bertaburan di lantai nih, namun mindanye bercuti sudah..hohoho.



p/s : 11 days already... smileeeee~

Curi2 (BZD)

Gambar ini hiasan semata- mate.

 Hanya bertujuan untuk menambahkan kecomelan di blog saya #!#

Precaution!

Refer your doctor if U r on Benzodiazepines and if U are PREGNANT.

haha... Just revise on effect of BZD to pregnant mother.

BZD can cross placenta barrier and cause side effects to the fetus.

Newborn show withdrawal if mothers use BZD during pregnancy.

Use during labour? lead to (baby)

-Depressed respiration and feeding

-Floppy baby syndrome

-Low APGAR score

A= activity

P= pulse

G= grimace ( refllex irritability)

A= appearance

R= respiration

p/s: Tau ke Benzodiazepins (BZD) tu drug ape? Hehhe.. It is a group of drugs that have sedative hypnotics effects ( Sleeping pills ... Tapi banyak lagi function lain). Ex: Anxiolytics, Sedation, Hypnosis,Anaesthesia, Anticonvulsant, Muscle relaxation... Contoh drugnye are; Diazepam, Lorazepam, Alprozolam, Midazolam.... HUuu~ Enjoy d learning process ya!

erk! kenapa tajuk entry ni curi ya? Sebab saya curi above pic from Farah's blog.. Hahha.. Cute meh?



Knit..knit...knit...knit...STOP!

mini bag



mini bag

pencil case

hair scarft

Hooooo~ No more knitting after this. I should stop for a while. Time restricted.

Oh yeah! Now, I should spend more on studying2.. Haha, Somehow, Ill always end up blogging, not even finishing a note pon.. Huu..  sib baik aja ade study group, at least, by hook or by crook, I kena study juge kan.. Hheheh.. Pemalas betooolll!!!

Just realise that after Selanjar 3, 2 weeks clinical blog and I have only 3 weeks for my study weeks. I thought it is going to be 4 weeks.

Oh God! Now I should start cover my 2nd year notes already.. Takut x sempat t..Oh and oh...

I need to pass my S3 excellently, as well as my pro2..

Hmm~ CVS, respi, git, gut, endocrine, bioethic, communicable, psychiatry, repro as well as clinical block... Oh here I come!!!!!

p/s: Study, ibadat, eat, sleep, blog =PERFECT

Chocolate and 2010

There is nothing sweetier than spending great time with your friends with all those yummy creamy milky chocolates.. Oh hooo~ (Thanx to Ah ink, manager and sponsorer for the choc party).

2010 is getting to say bubye and 2011 is preparing to say hye2..
Oh I gonna miss my 2010 and all those memories.
Im getting older. Im getting 22.. A good number to cheer with.. haha

Tracking back memories, I remember how stressfull my January and February 2010 is.
All  in my head are about PSP Course Night and Family Day..
And lucky me, I really have  good friends to work with.
Nad, Kacah, Fatin, Aiman, n lot others.
And now, no worries,  the memory is already well kept in my diary.

And since that, I promised not to hold any position in any activities anymore.
I just want to focus more on my life.
Finding enjoyment and happiness.. And now here I am, full of life..
aceeehhh..wakaka..

Hmm, but now, my big exam is coming.
I have to focus on my pro2.
I have to spend most of my time with my study group members.
Huhu.. it just remind me of my first year moment..
Moment  we spend time at red square, studying like hell for our pro1..
Ahhaha.. Deja vu..

Cak : Cari2 tapi x jumpe, harap2 lepas exam dapat jumpe balik..

Boss coffee.... Good start

Yeah! A good day to start with.

I have to do a lot of editing and deleting before deprivate my blog again. Kalolah U all know what I have written here before this, haha malu kekucinganla I. So full of warna warni kehidupan yang ntah ape2... Huhu.. But no funlah an author without a reader. Thus, after a few modification process, now let share our thought..
I read yours, u read mind... Yeah! so genorous.. But now, let me have my sleep first... My beloved lappy work in very slow speed now. Think that he need rest tooo.. Huyeeeyyy

Dont cry baby!

At one time, I feel so down. The supression method doesnt work well anymore. My eyes get hot and hotter and drop by drop of tears wet my cheek. Argh... It is so relaxing. Lately, I dont go  jogging anymore, thus all the stress really kill me . That is why it come out through my eyes instead. cry baby..

RESPONSE INHIBITION. Alhamdulillah, my orbitofrontal  still function great. I use it a lot lately. Extra than usual.  Huhu.. I have to inhibit U from my life. It is damn hard U know. Lucky me, I am a strong girl.. Yeah, just lack of otot ketul2 je. Hihi... I have to focus on my exam though. Love, dont hurt me anymore. Silence is hurting.. Dont U understand this? Ah jiwang lagi...geli3...hahah.. Huhu.. My group study activities go continuous lately.. Siang malam... But still I cant remember all those drugs n facts.. Oh come on la... Come and reside in my long term memory la... Dont leaver me ever... Kalolah ilmu2 itu faham apa yg I bebelkan ni... oh adushhh!!

p/s : Menangislah mengenangkan dosa2... Sucikan hati n rasai kemanisannya... ^ ^

Heart can talk, but who can hear?

I talk too much.
I hurt too many.
Now , I  wanna keep myself silent.
I care no more if my heart just talk on its own.
I care no more if no ear want to listen.
It is my life afterall.
A life which no one care.
A life which I conduct on my own.
Yeah! let just the voice keep remain in my heart.

Kata dr azzat, kalo letih lihat langit biru. But now musim hujan,
langit jingga pon oklah.. soothing juge~

                                    wonder sampai bilakah tiang elektrik ini akan tegak berdiri?

Chicken chop marey~

Look delicious ryte?
huhu... yeah it is. Just a bit salty..
But somehow, that was considered a yippee for the 1st trial...
hee~ Not me d chef pon... My auntie. M. Joh who cook it..  I was d chef assistant la...
hahah.. Another yippee for myself on my stupidness.. adoooiii~
Know what, I was eager to taste the sauce then I put a drop on my palmar hand..
Adoii... melecur la sayang oooiii..
I thought tadela panas sgt. B4 ni i try je kuah2 lain, tadela panas camni..
huhu~ sebab pakai tepung jagung kot n d sauce is likat sangat..
Serve me well.. jarang sgt turun dapur kan...heee~
Tape2, I always believe cook is inborn talent to all d women..
One day, I will master d cooking baking nih... huhu~ nantikan saja ya..

p/s: Lame sangat x update blog. Got alot of story to tell, yet got no passion to write.. hehe~ Cite cikai camni pon bolelaaa..haha

Life must go on

Yeah! we just finish conducting 2nd year OSCE trial.
 So we reward ourself lakan after hard work tu, kuar gi makan kat d Classic plus shopping kat Mydin..haha
Lame betul x keluar makan ngan Nad...Huuu~
I admit, today is a very enjoyable day.. Seronok bile kite bantu peoples.
but sorry la Nad n d gang, I just help u guys a lil bit.. ampuuunnn!!
Hari ni as usual, I keep waiting somebody tu online kan. statusnye online je, but seems like not there.
Haha.. Bizi kowt...x pon tenet prob.. hmm, my sis pun jarang online da..
rindunye mereka semua..
Btw, one of my best buddy bakal menamatkan zaman bujang suda..
oh, sgt mude rasenye.. Huhu... tumpang excited pulak.. adeiiii... cepat2 dapat bebi yep.. : )

Tembak di hati

Tembak
Apa yang kau tembak?
Tak perlu tanya. Lihat saja.

Parah.
Dimanakah parahnya?
Perlu aku rawat?
Jangan. Biar saja.

p/s: That is what we call denial. yeah, to be truth, you shot me straight to my heart. I need you to fix it back. But who cares? You never care. So just let me with my 1st aid kit...haha