Pejamlah mata wahai sayang

Sayang,
Nangis. suka. duka. rindu. sayang.benci. marah.
jatuh. bangkit. duduk. diri. undur.
segalanya semua.
pejamlah matamu.

Sayang,
Biar gelap. biar kabur. biar sakit.
tahan. terus bertahan..
jangan pecah. biar penuh tersimpan.
jangan lari. biar utuh berdiri.

(special dedicated to my fren, sakit kan rasenye, tutup mate je, pura pura buta, kalo x tahan lagi, buka mata lihat langit biru. maaf. bahu yang memikul lebih terasa bebannya dari mata yang melihat) 

p/s: gonna be very busy with the cfcs, silat test, n learning issue. Hope to close my eyes tight. Sorry to my pbl mates for cannot give my best anymore in d CFCS. tired already. tired with all those selfishness.

drowsy

OMG! chronic case.
dont know how to handle.
Feeling crazy and disoriented.
Oh! find me a solution.
common! aja2..

p/s : hard to describe

nano-nano

treeett....(vibrate)
"hello... k.ining, yah ni, kak ining balik bilo?"
T beli ko yah cekelat deh.
beli nano2...lagi emmmm....emmmm...eemmm..
ikut la gapo2 pun.

Huhu.. writing here so i wont forget souvenir for my youngest sister.
Plus, last week, she asked me to buy a pencil case just like d one im using now.
"T beli ko yah nga T sx deh.. hok samo, ikut la wano gapo2 pun...
pink ko, capo2 pon xpo" hahaha...

hmmm... my shirah..
da besar kamu ye... d apple of family..
kamulah racun, kamulah penawar..
sayang kamulah..

p/s: ( u ingat kakak2 u ni, gi melancong ke... tiap kali balik umah, ade je pesanannye.. tu baru mintak ngan i, x campo lagi yg mintak ngn kuku2 yg lain...hemmm...)

Ours

Sometimes, we dont need to talk.
Because not everything have to.
That is our talk.

No shout , no loud , no words!
But it reach our Broca's and wernickes's area.
Activating our limbic system..
That is our emotion.

We are not deaf, we are not dumb.
But we are in our way.
That is our language.

Others might think we are crazy.
Others might think we are dizzy.
But who cares!
That is our heart.

Not to be apart

p/s : Nak cerna cns notes sehadam hadamnya. Nak berbicara detail pasal brocas area n wernickes area pun tersekat sekat... X campur lagi other various system involved. See how great Allah is. Human brain is damn complicated. N we are damn special. Jom kita bersyukur pada Allah. Alhamdulillah!

doodle

ah! Ini nota untuk hari ini.
bukan saja2 nak tunjuk bakat menconteng .
bukan juga mahu menonjolkan kecomelan diri..
bukan juga nak tunjuk tulisan yg boleh dikira kemas la bg level diriku ini.
bukan apa2..
nak cakap lecture hari ini sangat bosan! x de slides!
mula2 ngantuk, lepas amalkan exercise untuk cerebellum, terus jadi segar. sangat segar
tapi masih bosan... tetiba keluar la bayangan ayam2 kfc n mcD..
huu~ akhirnya petang ni gi la makan kfc ngn ahli2 pblku yang tercenta..
yes! makan nasi hari ni... nasi ayam kfc. yuhuu~

Anak kecil

Anak kecil,
Masih rapuh jiwanya.
Lagaknya angkuh biarpun bertatih jatuh.
Fikirnya, " Aku hanya mahu menjadi dewasa.
Aku ingin berjalan jauh".

Anak kecil,
Tidak ampuh peribadinya.
Saat diherdik keras, air mata mengalir deras.
Fikirnya, " Ibu, ayah.. kenapa harus aku dimarah?
Aku ingin membesar gagah."

Anak kecil,
serapuh jiwamu, tanpa ampuh tegakmu,
kau masih anak kecil.
Bertatih jatuh, menangis lirih,
kau tetap anak kecil.
Fikir ibumu, fikir ayahmu,
"Anakku, jatuhlah, tapi bangkitlah,
menangislah tapi membesarlah".

Kami ingin melihatmu membesar gagah, berdiri megah.
Kerana kamu masih, tetapi bukan selamanya,
kami punya anak kecil.

p/s: Yesterday was a great fun being able to experience 'majlis berendoi' adik Inas Sofea. Hmm.. lucky nana, for having such 3 cute nephew and niece. How I wish to have one. Oh sister, cepat cepatlah kawin tu... hahaha

Lyric

Lyrics: Insha ALLAH
Maher Zain


Every time you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost and
That you're so alone
All you see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair n' never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3

Every time you commit one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that it's way too late
You’re so confused,
Wrong decisions you have made
Hunt your mind and your heart is full of shame
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cos' Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insha Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah x3

Insha Allah you’ll find your way
Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him Raise your hands and pray Oh
Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2
Insha Allah x3

Insha Allah we’ll find our way
...............................................

p/s:  Orang da ke bulan, aku baru sibuk2 nak gi cari tiket... hahah... Da basi kot lagu ni.. But somehow, someway, Its damn soothing n meaningful. x lapuk dek hujan, x lekang dek zaman.

Language

The language of friendship lies not in words, but in the heart.~

A bundle of thanks to my dear Farah for the Bihun tomyam. hee~ cedap
I am deeply stuck in my latest admiration of knitting.
Till at a point, food means nothing to me.
Jari jemari asyik mendominasi.
My stomach keep screaming "LAPAR!!!". but..hhuhu
hee~ cian die.
Sampailah Farah came 2 my room, brought me a bowl of bihun tom yam and pau kacang merah,
finally my stomach stop crying.. haha..
thanx dude!

Cengeng.

Kakak aku kata aku cengeng.
sikit2 nak nangis. sikit2 nak merajuk.
aah. aku memang cengeng.
Tetiba malam ni rasa nak menangis.
Tapi takde sebab pun.
(erk!!!perlu ke mention kat cn??
perlu kot. kalo sedih kate sedih,
kalo hepi gelak sekuat hati)

Boleh x...........

aku takuuttt....
Can I??
Takut sangat.
Got no place to go.. Got nowhere to hide.

Debush! padan muke kau.
Pandai cari, pandailah kau lari!
Kaki ada, tegaklah kau berdiri.
Kalau kau x tahan lagi, rebah je ke bumi...

mm.. mak, saya mahu pulang.
pulang n buang segala yang ada.
x mahu simpan2 jeruk kasam ni.
makin lama, makin berbusuk.
Kusut.

Ok. hari ini.
aku cuba lagi. tegak je aku berdiri.
Pulang nanti, kusut itu, kemas aku patri.
tutup dalam peti.
x kan aku buka lagi.

p/s: kata orang bahasa itu jiwa, cantik bahasanya, cantiklah jiwanya. Tapi aku x setuju. Rosak bahasa, bukan beerti rosak jiwanya. cuma cacamerba! yes! report da hantar! baru saja.