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wawwaawa...(luv dis now)
hahha... smlm i update my fb relationship status to:
in relationship with mohamad shafiq...weeee~
caya ker????
ada satu kisah di sebaliknya...
i said oredi, my lovey dovey life is so much complicated...
no one would understand,
me either x berape pehe with myself...
yg pasti, i hate biler der people **** me...
lets just me yg usha org..wawawa...(luv dis now)
ala ami!!! tapi nape budak tu gitu...
i hate all d pictures... really obscene...
rosak my reputation...
daaa~ camtu tu ke my boyfriend.
isk3... ops beraninye, ainin bercerita di blog ini,
ak harapkan dy membaca... huhu...
tapi dy x kan bacer kot...
i prefer x der org visit, so dat, snng la i nak berceita apa saje..
huhu...
2day, 25 nov is mira birthday...
we celebrate at 1 restaurant... romantik seyy kdainye...
makey cheese cake... so sweet~hahah

aku bermain dengan api...janganla mmbakar diri~

23 nov 2009, ainin lari dari bermain dengan api...
tapi dia memilih masuk dalam oven...
still terasa panas... uwwaaa...~
I got no choice. In life, we have 2 sacrife even d most important thing.
I sacrificed my heart... my feeling...
just not to broken others...
im doing escapism...
i wish i could be more telus....its torturing me inside,
kalolah mereka mengetahui...
huk3... tenanglah ...

kugumbiraan yg ilang...kanku cari pulang!!!

hahha... nothing is everlasting in da world...
moment by moment kita face,
sometimes ada tawa sometimes ada tangis,
times keep moving...
Aku rasa dia da berubah..
my sensitive emotion is analysing again...
i am not a perfect gurl...
far away a good fren...
i cannot promise anything...
but i can give my best..
Just, dont hate me..
dont treat me me like i am d one yang menyakitkan...
kalaulah aku mengetahui...

hari ni, time solat asar terdengar dialogue akak pencuri tu with her collegues...
badmouth bout me...
ikot ati, nak show berani n appear in front of her...
terkedu agaknye dy...
But , ive made my mind not to prolonge dis matter anymore...
sabar~
I went 2 see dr fuad tadi...
have sort of sharing session...
I like him very much... as my caunselor la..
talking to him, like talking to my other fren..
feeling free 2 citer ape2 jer.
n i love his humbleness...
esok, dy ajak makan kat umah dy..
sume bg sib la... der open house sket..
huhu... wish a cheerful day 4 me 2moro~

ainin tengah suka hati

bukti my enset back 2 work... daulah~

yooo~ wuusup...

I returned home dis passed weekend..

enjoyed my time preciously with my family~

thanx mom n dad~

DISASTER!!!

Dr Fuad wanna see me. ayoyo~

I suppose 2 go to big sib camp.

but, i bought tiket balik umah last minute instead...

try u imagine, kol 9 mlm khamis gitu... tnga makan kfc lagi ngn aina n mira...

kol 10 mlm i made my mind nak balik..

i called mira n asked her help 2 acmpany me cari tiket at langgar.

Lucky me, tiket ade..kol 11... bju n da readi dlm kete da.. YEA!!

huhu~ fam prob... haha~ dats true...

Peperpon, i wish d besh 4 them..

n i gain d best 2..

KENAPA AININ HAPPY~

because dye da relieve her omesick...

so balik ni, lot of things 2 be settled..

-psp project,

-study~ exam da dekat wooo~

-enset da settle, life back no normal cheer mode...

-nak amik ignore situation jer ngn akak pencuri 2...

wish her insaf n repent cepat...

dis is latest quote in my life~

stop analyzing bad side~ hunt 4 good la plak... heee~

pusing~

I feel like really a bad girl..
I try my best 2 cri d henset...
i force d makcik to mngaku bersalah jgk.
i ugut dye, if dye, x nak ngaku,
ill report to police...
Do i am a really bad girl????
i have alot of evidence to tduh dye...
Just, dye still x nak ngaku..
She even said" mengo ko mu ni"
oh Allah... I am really sorry..
X perla, sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah...
Allah itu maha Adil...
kita akn berjumpa kat akhirat nanti..
huhu... somehow, my mind really serabut ni...
Luckily, my car da siap service... plan 2 amik enset kat kdai ptg ni.
I really feel heartless now...
Nothing 2 ease me..
i am really dissapointed with myself.. huhu
I feel like sangat malas nak work with my ketua.
He even doesnt ask me a thing bout given task...
life like heaven... i wish so...
huhu, malas nak g kelas gak nih...
semalam i ajak farh main badminton kat dewan aerobik...
hahha, kna tegor ngn pak cik tu da...
x ley main kat situ... cedey~ dewan bad rmai ore laki...
Somewhat, i have 2 main, 2 release my mind...
projek psp ni, pon x gerak g...
ainin oh ainin...
suker tangguh kerja...
susanya, nak pikir konsep n theme~
i wanna do my best...
n make d day, an unforgotton one...
Common ainin, chayok2...

fight pakcik! fight

huhu...
alhamdulillah ct 4 2day went smoothly.
Dr shameem is a very nice dr.
n i got a very nice patient too.
Dis is 1st heart attack for en aziz..
he is young ...
jus 36 years old.. too young too have myocardial infarction..
huhu... life is really unsacarable~
My tears also feel like wetting my cheek.
I imagine his future life..
What chances do he has.
i have no answer.
He have a very happy family and d youngest son, 5 years old.
After d session ended, he asked 4 BO.
N then, d nurse n dc doesnt allow him 2 go 2 toilet.
He had 2 do it at the bed.
of cos with tirai tertutup.
Pity of him.. I understand how does he feel~
But, not a bit pon, i can share d sadness...
He still portray a nice smile..
Fight pakcik... fight...
u must live longer...

Peoples are seeking for smile

Peoples have to do alot of things.
sometimes we are happy doing it.
sometimes we are not.
But, we know life keep going.

As we crawl,
we knew, we are moving.
Step by step, we are still moving.
We are searching... searching for everything we wish to.
Searching for smiles.

Then they start grouping.
Because people know, we get stronger when we are in group.
We knew that there must be someone to rely on,
When we are tired of crawling.

Life is not a competition.
It is not about who own the sweetest smile,
It is not about the frequency of smiling.
It is all about the way we define smile itself.

I define the smile as a gift.
I am happy if i can make others smiling.
I am happy if others can make me to smile.
Even when i am tired,
recieving or giving this gift can cheer me up.
With this, I am happy even if crawl alone.

Just, dont let d past, passed..
keep it, lead it~

ct on ischemic heart disease

not in spirit of blogging recently...
cannot take pic.. lol
clinical teaching oh ct...
2day, jannah n vithia present an old female with ischemic heart disease case.
dr Shapawi, a cardiologist very busy one but besh...
2day homework...
ischemic cardiac chest pain
location : central, difuse
radiation : jaw, neck, shoulder, arm (occasionally back)
character : tight, squeezing, choking
precipitation : exertion n emotion
relieving fc : rest, quick response 2 nitrates
ass. feature : breathlessness

n he asked us 2 find bout "new york heart association functional classification"..
class 1: no limitation drg ordinary actvt
2: slight limitation " "
3:marked limitation of normal actvt but no symptoms at rest
4:symptoms at phy actvt n may b present at rest

Mary asked y d mak cik eyes cam der whitish ring surround d cornea..
dc kata itu adalah "archus senilis"...
oh upanya itu adlh fat deposition.. older people slalu der..

Yes... I just bought my stathescop.. haha..
br semangat nk g ct..
here, d nerdy one improved..P

i hope it is a dream~

Healthex just reached the tirai penutup.
Life is truly enjoyable this few days.
No books, no notes, no pe...no studies..
everything is just about breast ca.
huhhuuhu..

su's handset together with my sim card had been stolen.
call2, at last, rini an aunt angkat..
when i said dat i had lost my phone,
dy trus ltak n off d phone
my car's petrol tube pecah n i had 2 sent it 4 service
wh i dont know ble ley dpt lik.
my supernova rosak lagi...
n x ley antr kdai .. no kete.
huhu... life is terribly messy.
seb bek hidup ni besh..

ri2 g kilang budu..
di hari yg panas..
mmg pengalaman yg bermanfaat.

My heart cannot stand these~

my 2nd, 3rd, 4th ...heart...my feeling's store

Have u ever feel, hate of being urself..
erm.. i felt it alot..
I had a very easily crack heart..
It cannot hold too much feeling.
Thus, its making me damn sensitive person.
I cannot be too happy, too much laugh,
otherwise, ill be crying at the end.
I cannot face sadness,
So ill end up with lying.
Just to make them happy.
I cannot stare into eyes,
then i will be hating.
I cannot be pampered,
otherwise, I will be rejecting.
These feeling is torturing me.
I just want to be cool.
Miliki hati sekeras batu.
Assertive and more transparent...
Thus, i always hoping.. dat i am an invisible human..
no one will notice me and no one will care about me.
I just want to be free from those feeling.
Is there any treatment or manouvers that can help me???.